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<u><b><br /></b></u> Hello America! This is an old family recipe that became a staple in my childhood and helped our family get through the lean times on the mean streets of New Canaan, Connecticut. We had two black kids in our high school, but we did what we could and I believe ultimately grew closer as a family. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do! </div>
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1 pound American fusilli pasta
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1 garlic clove, minced
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1 (9-ounce) bag fresh spinach, roughly chopped
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8 ounces (1/2 pint) cherry tomatoes, halved
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1 cup (about 3 1/2-ounces) grated Asiago
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1/2 cup grated Parmesan
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1 teaspoon salt
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3/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper</div>
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First a couple of words about American fusilli: It is not Italian.</div>
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Now, bring a large pot of salted water to a boil over high heat keeping in mind the fact that although Preparation rhymes with Reparation this should not be a source of anxiety for you. Add the
pasta and cook until tender but still firm to the bite, stirring
occasionally, about 8 to 10 minutes. Special note: remove 1/4 of the pasta at three minutes for presentation purposes that I will go into later. Drain pasta reserving 1/2 cup of
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Skin and cut the kittens into four inch strips. Save the heads. Meanwhile, warm olive oil in a large, heavy skillet over medium-high heat. Add the garlic and kitten strips and cook until fragrant, about six minutes. </div>
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<i>A note on procuring the kittens: It is always best if you can find kittens that have recently been adopted by a poorer family. This gives them time to marinate in the misguided love that caused them to be adopted in the first place. Also, the shock of being clubbed and torn from the hands of some shrieking child will set the marbling in the kitten meat in a way I have never been able to duplicate using other methods.</i></div>
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Add the spinach and tomatoes and cook until the spinach wilts, and by wilts I mean surrenders completely to the pressures of what is good and right;
about 2 more minutes. Add the cooked pasta and toss. Add the cheeses,
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As I mentioned earlier, this is where the under-cooked American fusilli that was set aside comes into play. American fusilli has a firmer character than the Italian variety, for obvious reasons, and is more amenable to decorative manipulation. Take the severed kitten heads (one per serving) and place them on a marble cutting board. With the firm but pliable American fusilli begin making a corkscrewing motion through the right eye of one of the kittens and, using the back of the kitten's skull as a guiding ballast, continue until it emerges from the left eye. There should be enough American fusilli protruding from each of the kitten's eyes for a cherry tomato to be decoratively screwed onto each end. Place one decorated kitten's head onto each dish.</div>
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Watch your guest's mouth's water ravenously as you have your maid (who you should have a talk to after the meal; you know she has been stealing; when will these people learn; right?!) cart this fantastic dish out to your Ethan Allen large rustic dining table. </div>
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<br />Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-10355441662205639742012-12-24T20:38:00.003-08:002013-06-16T15:16:43.371-07:00Christmas Eve: 20127:45 a.m.- My Volvo is Emma Thompson from the movie Wit; confident, invulnerable, and then something else. At one time she rested less than 25 feet from my bedroom window like a dark blue lioness, indifferently perusing the local environment with all of the certainty that the top of the food chain is accorded. Like Emma, there was no part of her that I would not happily lick. But now she is excreting various rainbow inducing fluids, dry-heaving sluggish billows of blotchy smoke, and seeming to be looking to me for answers; answers that we are both certain do not exist.<br />
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8:05 a.m.- I vaguely feel as though I am embarking upon a tremendous adventure, carefully tying the shoes that I almost never wear and meticulously arranging, the way a Spec Op surely would, the necessary tools- iPod/headphones/wallet/do I need the Leatherman?- but catch myself and immediately feel ridiculous. I head out wondering if there might be some chemical explanation for all of this.<br />
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9:15 a.m.- Walking sucks. I feel as though I should somehow be above this. <i>When we are young we are often puzzled by the fact that each person we
admire seems to have a different version of what life ought to be, what a
good man is, how to live, and so on. </i>The two drunken teenagers who seem to have established permanent residence somewhere within my consciousness and who have clearly been designated to debate 'important matters' are going at each other over whether or not I should have chosen The Denial of Death as my early morning walking soundtrack. Both of them are wrong.<br />
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10:23 a.m.- Is it possible that someone has poisoned my feet? Can you do that? I feel as though I am walking upon Belladonna infused pillows of calculated revenge. Who have I wronged to such an extent? Clearly a frustrated botanist of some sort; someone with access to my teas. <br />
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10:37 a.m.- I pretend to not heavingly lunge into the Convention Center light rail station, at once overjoyed by the fact that I will soon be off of my poisoned feet but dismayed by the fact that I will still have a 30 minute walk, after the final stop, to my trumpet lesson. <span class="st"><i>Non ridere</i>, <i>non lugere</i>, <i>neque detestari</i></span><i><span class="st">, sed intelligere.</span></i><br />
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<span class="st">11:13 a.m.- </span><i><span class="st"> </span></i><span class="st">I smugly walk through the doors of Music-Go-Round, a local music store, fairly certain that I have accomplished something remarkable. No one seems to notice and I am too much of a gentleman to bring it up. </span><br />
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<span class="st">11:45 a.m.- I have a great lesson with an awesome nine year old who is going to be far better at the trumpet than I ever was.</span><br />
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<span class="st">12:47 p.m.- The fact that I am nearly out of cigarettes makes me want one in an almost sexual fashion. There is a liquor store down the street from the music store. I decide to switch to music for the walk home. </span><span class="st"><i>Hey, I guess you're lonely, when I gave, you only took. So then it's stranger than its ever been. I guess it's what you wanted</i>. If it was cloudier I would be happy. Still, I am something close to happy.</span><br />
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<span class="st">1:05 p.m.- For a guy who is legitimately misanthropic I have a great rapport with local shop owners. The guys who run the 7-11 by my house are virtually kin, and the dude at this place smiles at me as though he has been waiting months for the opportunity. </span><span class="st"><i>It is the summer of my smiles - flee from me Keepers of the Gloom. </i>I grab a bottle of grapefruit juice, a pack of American Spirit Menthol (for no sociological reason whatsoever, although I sometimes feel as though it may help) and a small bottle of Vikingfjord Vodka, which I would never have bought if not for Joe Rizzi; fucking marketing.</span><br />
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<span class="st">1:25 p.m.- It's not easy to fill a bottle of grapefruit juice on a busy public road in the middle of the day without drawing attention. <i>Yeah, in tight bursts </i>is the lyric<i> </i>I use to muster the courage. Once again the teenagers in my brain are restless. </span><br />
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<span class="st">1:45 p.m.- <i>Stalactites, stalagmites, </i></span><span class="st"><i>shut me in, lock me tight... </i>it seems early, but it's on. Oh yeah, I forgot to eat. Something about the blood barrier in the stomach. My feet no longer hurt. Neither do my perennially chaffing thighs. Damn good thighs. If my Volvo was my thighs then this story would not exist. No knock on you, Emma.</span><br />
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<span class="st">1:58 p.m.- </span><i>Last week fucked around and got a triple double. </i>This lyric has suddenly made me acutely aware of the discrepancy between how I am viewing myself (prowling the streets with an intentionally reserved bad ass menace) and how I am viewed by others (he doesn't appear to be homeless, but something's up.)<br />
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<span class="st">2:15 p.m.- When you make a mistake walking it takes much more time than could be usefully utilized in a blog piece. Mine involved a psuedo-court and several diligent locals. They were pleasant, but I was nearly in tears when I realized the amount of backtracking that would be involved. I did have a plan. I was going to go to the bowling alley near Union Ave. There I would order a double vodka grapefruit and casually ask for a pen, as though I didn't have a care in the world, and sign my lesson check so that I could take it to the bank in the complex. <i>I don't feel the way I ever felt: </i>well, not quite true, but the song kills and made my questions seem irrelevant. </span><br />
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<span class="st">2:20 p.m.- I wrote my bro and Palladino what I thought was a penetratingly meaningful text regarding the futility of existence. It wasn't. </span><br />
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<span class="st">2:37 p.m.- Honestly. I'm not sure the bus is even coming. Do they run on Christmas Eve at this time? What the fuck are these people... oh, here it is. She seems uncertain. I don't know how long she has been a bus driver, but she clearly lacks the wound. <i>Give it up to me, give it up to me, do you want to be my angel? </i>I don't let her know. </span><br />
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<span class="st">3:12 p.m.- She turned out to be very helpful. Now I am waiting for the #60 bus, that she recommended, to take off. The new driver is clearly horrible. I ask him when we will leave. He says four minutes. I tell him I'm going to take a quick smoke. He says that's OK, just as long as you don"t exhale near his bus. Dick! He looks like Pruitt Taylor Vince's stunt double. I get back on the bus and sulk into a far away seat. Turns out he is an awesome dude. Lots of cool info about unions- <i>paranoia, paranoia, everybody's coming to get me- </i>and the general obligations of a VTA bus driver. I am in fine form. Am I? I could be worse.</span><br />
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<span class="st">3:45 p.m.- Home. Every part of me hurts. The interior of my right elbow; many unfortunate things taking place on a cellular level; my xiphoid process, disastrously. But it is obvious that I have won. Irony leaves no residue. I lurch down the hallway in mock celebration clutching at framed photos of people who are not my family: </span><span class="st"><i>And I'll find strength in pain, and I will change my ways, I'll know my name as it's called again.</i></span><br />
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From the $3200 ostrich-lined mesh unitards to the boyish good looks of Kate Moss, the world of high fashion has always been an impenetrable enigma. It is a world populated by exotically mute Vikingettes who distantly tower over you from every magazine cover and who seem, somehow, to lack bodily fluids of any kind. They exude a mixture of allure and decay that can only be explained by years of dietary heroin suppositories and three day weekends with 'funny uncles.' And they cast no shadows; they are the perfect <span style="font-style: italic;">Tabula Rasa</span>. Advertising executives bank on the fact that we will project our many unreachable masturbatory fantasies onto these glossy black-and-whites as we deliberate the relative merits of Old Navy and The Gap. <br />
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This, of course, is precisely what we do. But why? If a nation as intelligent, sophisticated, self-aware, grounded, subtle, profound, disciplined, keenly observant, and self-actualized as ours can be so easily manipulated, then surely a force with uncanny power must be at work. Fashion Moguls and Demiurges are notoriously reluctant to discuss such things. But in an effort to find answers, I came across a genuine rarity. A model, an insider, who was willing, and had the capacity, to speak.<br />
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Sitting across the table from me, at Sunnyvale's impossibly posh Fibbar MaGees, he looked almost normal. You would never have guessed that he was modeling's "Next Big Thing." He was clearly nervous, as evidenced by the fact that he had barely touched his free-range salmon cubes that were marinated in mango chutney and placed atop a bed of pine-nut infused mixed greens, candied olives and pan-seared marshmallows and that had a cloud of whipped cream, raisins, and corn floating a full three inches above it, (which reminds me of another article I'll have to write for this fucking thing.) He had also insisted on taking a seat that faced the entrance and I knew I would have to be extremely gentle with him.<br />
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His voice was barely audible and had a furtive, resigned quality. For reasons that should be obvious I will not use his real name. "Mark Schnittker" was introduced into modeling, through the Boy Scouts, at the relatively advanced age of thirty-seven. But his lack of experience was easily overcome by a kind of vulnerable innocence and a tremendous shock of thick red hair. He quickly moved from Sears catalogs to the cover of Seventeen and this is when he had his first encounter with the Fashion Cabal.<br />
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While on location in the Cayman Islands, "Mark" was asked to strike a pose that suggested power and confidence. He opted for the traditional arms crossed over the chest, feet slightly apart, method. An ominous hush fell over the set and children could be heard crying in the distance. He realized that something had gone horribly wrong but was unable to place it. It was then that several helicopters swooped down onto the beach. From one of them, a small old man, dressed in black and covered in blankets, was wheeled through the set by a gigantic Filipino woman and placed directly at "Mark's" back.<br />
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At first, he could hear a single voice speaking angrily in a language he couldn't understand. This was followed by a deeper resonant voice and a hand that came to rest upon his shoulder. "You have made a grave error. This shoot is finished." Startled, "Mark" moved to turn around, but the hand on his shoulder tightened its grip and he collapsed to the ground in pain and lost consciousness.<br />
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He came to, several hours later, and found himself alone on the deserted beach. Struggling to regain his bearings, he noticed what appeared to be writing in the sand near the water. He moved over to take a look and was barely able to read it before a rogue wave crashed onto the shore and obliterated every word.<br />
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Most of the crowd had left Fibbars and "Mark" was visibly shaken by the re-telling of this terrible story. His famous red hair was matted against the sweat on his forehead. He reached out and downed his pomegranate martini in one desperate gulp. Looking again at the clock, he said, "It was a rookie mistake; one that I'll never be able to get over." <br />
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He looked me in the eyes for the first time that night. He was nearly weeping. "When I struck that pose, I had covered my hands with my arms. You must show your hands." Abruptly, and without warning, he shot up from the table and ran from the bar, shrieking, "You couldn't see them! YOU COULDN'T SEE THEM!"<br />
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I have since done a great deal of research. The world of fashion is as tight-lipped as Scientology, and precisely as meaningful, but, through the Freedom of Information Act, and a couple of well placed indulgences, I was able to get my hands on their charter.<br />
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It is an ugly and severe document of more than 2000 pages and is not fit reading for any person who hopes to retain even a modest portion of their humanity. I made it one third of the way through the introduction before buying an incinerator, assembling it, and then throwing the damned thing into it. But it was too late. Right there, on page four, was this:<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">Sec. 2-973.134<br />Regarding the assumption of, or request thereof, a physical gesture indicating power, confidence, or any related sub-virtue (cf. pp138), the subject must, in lieu of contradicting features, attendant to, but not limited by, said gesture, will, in accordance with addendum 9 to sec 3J-209.3, and in good faith, make visible, and in reasonable (as defined by subjugate protocol) time, said subject's posterior ancillary extremities, or "hands", the withholding of which will result in the de facto forfeiture of said subject's elan or vital fluids. </span> <br />
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It is a sad and beautiful world. I have been unalterably changed. How does one maintain hope in the face of such obvious malevolence? As my philosophy professor, Joe Steinke, once said: Knowledge makes a bloody entrance. And it is easy, now, to understand why I have a closet full of Prada bags and Vera Wang shoes.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-35478205442304646202012-12-06T20:15:00.003-08:002013-06-16T15:33:38.991-07:00Cinco: The Human Condition<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<i>Early Thanksgiving morning I received a call from Jet magazine's long time entertainment editor, Dastephen "Drizz" Broadus, who was nearly in tears as he described an album he had come across and the immediate effect it had upon him. The album that produced such a reaction was 'Cinco' from a San Jose band by the name of Corduroy Jim. 'Drizz' wanted me to not just review the album, but to find out how such a work could possibly have human origins. I was solemnly informed that I would receive an unlimited budget and unprecedented access, and that the future of Jet magazine, and perhaps that of music, was now in my hands. </i><br />
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Raymond St. Martin had a vision; a serenely tactile sensation that started at the base of his spine and moved up, in soft metallic tendrils, through his heart and lungs where it gathered momentum, spiraling through his neck and finally exploding with inhuman light into his brain: "Cinco."<br />
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I first met Raymond on a rainy Tuesday morning as he was kneeling on a handwoven mat in front of his teepee, deep in the Santa Cruz mountains. He looked up at me with large knowing eyes and motioned for me to sit beside him. I had spoken with him earlier, over the phone, at great length about his process and the genesis of 'Cinco' and I was eager to hear more.<br />
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I had listened to the album several times on the drive up and was struck by the variety of euphoric sensations that it produced in me. From the sylvan rumble of "Home" to the plaintive lament of "Little Child" to the effervescence of "Purple Light" I found myself navigating unfamiliar waters of emotion and sound that were at once frightening and alluring.<br />
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"I was not always a child of this Earth," Raymond breathlessly said, describing his first conception of the album. The rain had stopped and two more of the band members, Richard "Richie" Thomas and Martin Rodriguez, had arrived with a twelve pack of Sierra Nevada IPA and what appeared to be a crystal goblet filled with verdant foliage.<br />
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Richie, who is apparently Australian, wrote the song "Little Child," which one reviewer described as '... an anthem, in 3/3, that is littered with 'prog-rock'." It starts off with Raymond's trademark Juno stylings and quickly moves into a syncopated Bacchanal, thrusting and churning with dark insinuation as a cloud of ethereal synth-nuances floats over a sophisticated, but not pretentious, guitar ostinato. Richie sings this tune with a worldly voice, as though acknowledging the inherent limitations of human striving while, at the same time, extolling the virtues of responsible parenting.<br />
<br />
Raymond went on about his efforts to get his message out to the world through music, saying more than once and with great emphasis that he was much more than a "luxury" for this band, when a figure clad entirely in white emerged from the woods and silently sat down beside us.<br />
<br />
Michael Palladino has been Corduroy Jim's drummer for twenty-three years and is universally considered the spiritual center of the band. I was informed that Michael had taken a vow of silence while he was continuing his studies at the Unitarian seminary. Looking over the group he lightly tapped his fingers over his freshly pressed white tunic and the rest of the guys laughed at what was clearly some kind of inside-joke.<br />
<br />
"Home" is a Martin Rodriguez composition that clearly reflects his Appalachian roots. It is clean, forthright, and of the soil. Home is not a concept Martin takes lightly, and you can hear it in his subtle approach to the acoustic guitar. "I don't play the guitar," he has often said. "I let the guitar play me." And play him it does! This tune has been seen on the iPods of such luminaries as Griffen Dunne and Doris Kearns Goodwin, and now, thankfully, this very author's as well.<br />
<br />
"Thief-The Ballad of Johnny Cat" is a Martin Rodriguez composition that clearly reflects his metropolitan roots. It is powerful, moving, and of the street. The song, as such, is clearly an interior journey through the vibrating unconscious self, speaking to you in the galvanizing tones of an, as yet, unwritten language as it guides you to an understanding that exceeds the human capacity for wonder. It also has a guitar solo.<br />
<br />
Nick "Mooshie" Chargin drove up in a sort of orange-ish boxy thing and parked next to one of the many outdoor kilns. He is the band's long time keyboardist and vocalist and he looks as though he could be Paul Newman's less glamorous but equally charming second cousin. He is also responsible for the tune "Purple Light."<br />
<br />
As a Dungeons and Dragons aficionado myself, I immediately recognized that the tune was about the Arch-Palladin Quentinal's treacherous odyssey into the underworld to retrieve the Violet Crystal of Wandering from the mad half-orc, Phino, who had stolen it from its rightful heir, the Prophet Esmerelda. Mooshie subtly references the ritual mythology of the Valyrician Society with the line, "Dancing in the purple light," and it is so refreshing to see this topic finally represented, in a serious work of art, the way it was meant to be. Bravo, Mr. Chargin!<br />
<br />
The sun was beginning to disappear behind the redwood canopy and I knew this would be my last opportunity to find out what I could about this band's monumental achievement. As if anticipating my question Michael began to hover, ever so slightly, off of the ground and Raymond leaned in to whisper: The total is greater than the sum of its parts. A wolf bayed in the distance and the smell of vegan flat bread began to emanate from the warmly glowing teepee. I made my way to my car and was about to get in when I remembered something.<br />
<br />
"Oh yeah, don't you guys have a bass player."<br />
<br />
"Yeah, he's in my car over there," Nick said, pointing to the orange-ish boxy thing. "He hates this kind of shit."<br />
<br />
"Didn't he write one of the songs?" I asked. "I haven't gotten to it yet."<br />
<br />
"Eeets cowled beelowe," Richie said.<br />
<br />
"Below?"<br />
<br />
"Aye."<br />
<br />
"What's it about?"<br />
<br />
"I think it's about boating," Marty said. "Or maybe some kind of fishing, like net-fishing or something."<br />
<br />
"I'm pretty sure it is about fly-fishing," said Raymond as he swung his arms in a mock fisherman's style.<br />
<br />
"He likes fishing, a lot," said Nick.<br />
<br />
And with that I left them to the night.<br />
<br />
Back at my house I listened to the album again a couple of times. Not bad. Four and a half stars out of five and two thirds.<br />
<br />
<br />
Mort S.Veets <br />
Oroville, Ca.<br />
12-1-2012<br />
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Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-9902308417512829522012-10-25T06:58:00.000-07:002013-05-21T11:32:40.391-07:00Celebrity Profile: Nancy Grace<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgA3owPy3w-UOdd5sYOcDb30o4yyE-mOV0nfU7DSGDxe2gr_e2UaB_e2yOmmPFGCr1T6JdKovQVyxyMZ1L3m36oJM1vCUxJdmQ5ZZ0VGtfkIsZuvcA14zpYSRYxP3DICc4jHsBVSB6XcFVq/s1600-h/NancyGrace_l.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5261117081545226978" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgA3owPy3w-UOdd5sYOcDb30o4yyE-mOV0nfU7DSGDxe2gr_e2UaB_e2yOmmPFGCr1T6JdKovQVyxyMZ1L3m36oJM1vCUxJdmQ5ZZ0VGtfkIsZuvcA14zpYSRYxP3DICc4jHsBVSB6XcFVq/s320/NancyGrace_l.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 320px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 292px;" /></a><br />
In an effort at journalistic integrity I should disclose at the outset that Nancy Grace and I have a personal history. We lived together for several months in a small apartment on the outskirts of Atlanta. This was after her two run ins with the Supreme Court of Georgia and prior to the terrible business with CNN. Of this time I can only say she still owes me $645 in unpaid phone bills to various psychic hot lines, and that she once, after a night of box wine and miserable sex, tried to cut off my left ear with a butterfly knife.<br />
<br />
In her more sober moments, Nancy often described her childhood as a whirlwind of Lil' Miss Beauty Pageants, Junior Klan bake sales, and awkward Girl Scout outings (many a night ended with her crying herself to sleep, unable to explain exactly what transpired in those lonely humid Quonset huts.) But it was bible camp that gave her the greatest joy. I can still see the little flecks of foam that would form at the sides of her mouth as she regaled me with tales of "outing" sinful classmates and protesting evolution.<br />
<br />
"We almost got the entire high school Biology department shut down my junior year but some pinko freak made a stink and it didn't happen. I'll tell you, though, I made darn well sure I didn't learn a thing in that class."<br />
<br />
Nancy grew up and went to college where she was going to study Shakespearean Literature, "or something like that", but her fiance was tragically murdered and she found herself compelled to study law. Her time at Mercer University was not filled with drunken revelry or sorority parties or late night pow-wows or quick lunches with her roomie or the occasional movie or friendships of any kind, but was instead devoted to the grim business of getting a degree.<br />
<br />
After that it was a string of near successes that propelled Nancy into the American consciousness. She became a prosecuting attorney who won all of her cases. Some of these were later overturned on appeal for reasons as varied as lying on subpoenas, illegal searches, and a generic air of evil. Even the pointlessly conservative Supreme Court of Georgia has said of her: "...the conduct of the prosecuting attorney in this case demonstrated her disregard of the notions of due process and fairness, and was inexcusable." <br />
<br />
After a brief stint on Court TV, she made her way to CNN and <span style="font-style: italic;">The Nancy Grace Program. </span> It is one of those talking head programs where an articulate, gloomy moron spouts platitudes and shrieks at her guests. This is a job that attracts a certain type of humorless Troglodyte who has designs on getting back at the world; and Nancy's shrill, unknowing voice would be the perfect tool.<br />
<br />
Yes, she had finally made it. Among her notable successes was her vilification of the Duke lacrosse team. Without bothering herself with the tedious work of investigating the actual case, Nancy proclaimed them guilty and had many shows devoted to her wisdom on the matter. The day after they were acquitted, Nancy, in a genuinely classy move, had a substitute reporter announce the removal of the charges. And she never brought it up again.<br />
<br />
Of course there is more. Berating a distraught woman to the point of suicide. Assigning guilt, in the Elizabeth Smart kidnapping ordeal, to a man who was later found to be entirely innocent. Her well known passion for, and advocacy of, cock fighting. Her willful ignorance of the details of the FLDS raid; accusing them of child molestation even after they found out that the thirteen year old pregnant girl was really a twenty-two year old pregnant woman. If H.L. Mencken were alive today he would gouge her eye out with a fork. <br />
<br />
You see, I know her. I know her type. Her eyes are small and hard. She is quick to judgment, inaccurate, and ultimately unrepentant. She is the journalistic equivalent of a psychic in that she makes all sorts of grand pronouncements and counts on the fact that the people will forget the misses and revel in the hits. She is, in all fairness, a loud mouthed hillbilly cunt who somehow found herself on TV and who will do anything to stay there. She reeks of malice and frigidity and countless generations of inbreeding. And I want my fucking money, bitch!<br />
<br />
Still, when I reflect upon our time together, the cute way she used to blush when she talked about the purity of the race; her gritty determination to never make love with the lights on; the way she would hide ice cream cartons in the clothes hamper, carton after carton, just to keep me from worrying about her gargantuan ass; I have to say they weren't all bad times. She smelled weird but the woman could really cook a steak.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-46711643188766801982012-09-21T04:54:00.000-07:002013-05-21T11:33:55.700-07:00Car Go Fast<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqURvnrOWNBAyGt4yRBurLJ-73Ihm05W-uL1H4PYuscXbkKBfnrkmjXpIamUaqsmhOq4ZIUgY9b4JROXmGMtfWYojyKVu76NlWwyJG32ypWo687Di0pyVfRpiAoa68_njft_05-mAf1c32/s1600-h/hairy-nascar-fan.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5248474154056790402" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqURvnrOWNBAyGt4yRBurLJ-73Ihm05W-uL1H4PYuscXbkKBfnrkmjXpIamUaqsmhOq4ZIUgY9b4JROXmGMtfWYojyKVu76NlWwyJG32ypWo687Di0pyVfRpiAoa68_njft_05-mAf1c32/s320/hairy-nascar-fan.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center;" /></a><br />
I am pleased to inform you that yet another blow has been struck against terrorism and godlessness and that it is, once again, NASCAR that is leading the way. Next year there will be mandatory drug testing of all drivers and pit crews, and I, for one, say it's about time. This most emblematic of American sports has lain in tatters for far too long. With the help of our Savior and by "working the steps" we can right this ship, and once again hold our heads high.<br />
<br />
Because these are a proud people, these devotees of the stock car, with their gargantuan sticker-laden RV's, their American flags saturated with Budweiser and countless patriotic tears, and their courageous attempts to bring the philosophy and techniques of horse breeding into the human realm. So you can imagine how these Daughters/Sisters/Daughters of the American Revolution felt when they found out that their beloved NASCAR had turned into a breeding ground for ketamine freaks, meth-heads, pillbillys, go-go boys, blacks, and communists; God, Home, and Country indeed.<br />
<br />
A little background might be useful here. Dr. Winston Sinclair III ("Please, call me Cooter") is the dean of History at Duke University, and the foremost authority on NASCAR's murky beginnings. Cooter's den is a veritable shrine to all things stock car, from the Dale Earnhardt memorial plates to the gentle hum of the copper whiskey still; and it is whiskey that played the predominant role in NASCAR's early stages, much the same way it did for organized crime.<br />
<br />
To hear Cooter's heroic tales of bootlegging (high-speed drunken car chases through residential neighborhoods) which eventually worked its way from the backstreets of South Carolina to the magnificent stadiums of North Carolina, was nothing short of inspiring. <br />
<br />
"Well, in the beginning, there was Billy-Ray (Billiam) Dixon, and he drove a Ford. And there was William (Billy) R. Horton, and he also drove a Ford. And, of course, Willy (Big Willy) Williams, who was cousin to Billiam, and he drove a Ford as well. But it was the Kennedy's who came and fouled things all up. They drove Packards."<br />
<br />
With this historical perspective firmly in place I thought it best to check out a NASCAR show myself. I contacted Del Minkin, of the Atlanta branch of the John Birch Society, and set up a meet. Much to my delight he chose the Mecca of stock car racing, the Daytona Speedway; an improbably massive metallic mosque of a stadium that practically shrieks: "Submit to the will of NASCAR."<br />
<br />
Del met me in the parking lot with his daughter May. She was fifteen; had, at least, thirty-eight double D's; and her cut-off jeans shorts were so tight that I could just make out her fallopian tubes. Del shook my hand, tossed May onto his shoulders, and led us into to the stadium.<br />
<br />
"I knew there was a problem back in the sixties when some of the drivers stopped getting drunk and started getting high."<br />
<br />
Del stared off into the distance as he said this, clearly moved by the tragic state of affairs. We had worked our way to the inner area and were now completely surrounded by the track. May jumped off her dad and onto the shoulders of a passing stranger and disappeared into the crowd. I handed Del a Bud-Light and asked him to continue.<br />
<br />
"Well, it was that damn LSD. It made it god awful difficult to drive those cars at such high speeds," Del said, as he continued to tell me stories of those dark days. Stories like the one where A.J Foyt was found on his knees, naked and crying, in front of a Woolworth's store, in Lexington, Kentucky, at three in the afternoon. It took several doctors, a priest, and a frantic call to Ken Kesey, to get A.J. back into his truck. "We finally got him home, but all the whiskey in the world couldn't bring him back down that night." <br />
<br />
And so you might wonder why it has taken NASCAR so long to deal with this problem. From the sixties through the nineties there had been 135 official complaints; most of them from local churches, all of them drug related, all of them terrible. Tony Stewart's obvious track marks and Jeff Gordon's public dalliance with PCP are just the most well known instances. But the nightmare is over. <br />
<br />
As Del went off in search of his daughter, I took a last good look around. A permanent haze of gray exhaust hung over a sea of shirtless fans, lumbering clods of flesh grown pink with alcohol and indifference to the sun, as engines, pushed to the high pitched point of collapse, whirled around and around to the thunderstruck awe of everyone involved. <br />
<br />
"Yes," I thought. "This is worth saving."Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-8210397252123407262010-07-09T06:57:00.000-07:002012-01-22T00:49:32.622-08:00So These are the Days my Friends and These are the Days my Friends<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsGvsbGGI72CLP1Rl7dzpDZQuzMQTKsp_ib0I4IfB2m2j47znUye2xv_SFWlfOp6QEaT3D_Ti5ijx5M3SQWQk-sbznC0zDpJAurtmcSEm4vRZVChFNIGoiY-pRGnXUpvOexDqCVtGJh6tH/s1600/0028_w_de_kooning_mujer_y_bicicleta_1952_05.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 208px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsGvsbGGI72CLP1Rl7dzpDZQuzMQTKsp_ib0I4IfB2m2j47znUye2xv_SFWlfOp6QEaT3D_Ti5ijx5M3SQWQk-sbznC0zDpJAurtmcSEm4vRZVChFNIGoiY-pRGnXUpvOexDqCVtGJh6tH/s320/0028_w_de_kooning_mujer_y_bicicleta_1952_05.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5491940623723674994" /></a><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">About three minutes before it happens I am standing there, waiting for the light to change, and this young Mexican dude wanders out into the street and nearly gets hit by a truck. His gray Giants jersey flutters in the passing wind as he wheels around and looks directly into my eyes. A woman's voice is flatly reciting a passage about water and boats over droning pedal tones from a church organ as a choir repeatedly sings out the numbers one, two, three, four... and I think: This is a dangerous place. </span><br /><br />Walking through the streets of San Francisco with Phillip Glass blaring through my headphones and a three beer buzz can be a transporting experience. People flow by me with an exaggerated sense of purpose that is brought about by the intense, repetitive nature of the music. Glass is a kind of one trick pony, but it is a hell of a trick and when it works, there is nothing like it. A theme is stated, usually in a single voice, usually a weirdly pretty little melody, that begins to morph through various shifts in meter until it becomes clear that the melody is subservient to the time. The most easily apprehended part of the song fades and is replaced by the asymmetrical glass legos that form its structure. He also uses a lot of spoken word, often more than two distinct passages at a time, that seems to stand beside the music rather than within it. The effect is disjointing in that alien postmodern way that seems to be the native currency of so many recent artists. The speaker breaks off her repeated lines with an audible stutter and joins the chorus, which has been singing nonsense syllables or numeric variations, and is subsumed. It all seems ridiculous and pretentious until it works.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">I have some of the loose paranoia that often accompanies a genuine hangover but I have learned over the years how to manage it and the cool climate is helping. Still, the faces of the homeless seem especially angry today and I can feel them coming up behind me even when they are not there. I shove the Bose earbuds deeper into my ears and move across the busy street. I have no place I need to be. My brother has a nice room at the Hilton and I don't want to get too far from it. My calves are burning from all of yesterday's walking. I barely register the movement out of the corner of my eye.<span style="font-style:italic;"></span></span><br /><br />King Of Thai Noodle House & Sports Bar has $2 beers and $5 Thai dishes. I can't imagine how they stay in business. The dishes include a variety of curries, Tom Kha Gai soup, which is the only evidence I have for the existence of God, and some quality hot wings. The food tastes very good. The choice of beers in the two dollar range is great. Sierra Nevada, Stella Artois, Anchor Steam, and, of course, Coors Light, for when your breasts begin to feel tender. My brother and I spend a good two hours talking to a tennis pro from the UK about the subtleties of Premier League Football (soccer) as our beautiful bartendress, Grace, whips up a near endless supply of Lychee Mojitos. Grace may end up being my latest Facebook friend, if I can find her. Various sports are on various HDTV's and it is difficult not to think that this is a good night at a good place.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Everything seems out of context. Two bellboys run past me waving their arms. I can hear a woman screaming over the music in my headphones. I look at her and she turns away. Other people begin to move tentatively around me as I take off my headphones. I look down the alley. It is difficult to process. Some part of my mind tells me that there isn't enough blood. This is before the rest of my mind realizes that there is a dead body in the street. Someone shouts "He jumped," as I move to the body. Too many ideas appear in my mind, fully formed and seemingly out of nowhere. Should I try to help the person? Would that go against their wishes? Am I simply gawking? Why isn't there more blood? Yes. The body is surrounded by fluid, but it isn't blood. I have to get the fuck out of here. I push my earbuds back in and walk away. I get around the corner, turn around, and go back. More concerned faces flash by me. I take another look. It is out of context. It is like a dining room table in the middle of a football field. A siren goes off in the distance. I have to get the fuck out of here. </span> <br /><br />Nietzsche said that the thought of suicide got him through many a rainy night. I couldn't agree more. It is one area where we can exercise control. It is an option, and I suspect that part of the reason that I have never taken it is similar to what keeps me at the poker table for just one more hand. Past the joy, or usefulness, or potential, or even awareness, I just have to play one more hand. Of all of the methods of suicide, I would have to put jumping from a building near the bottom. It seems too public. Also, there is the possibility that you will live on for a couple of minutes, in delirious agony, as your body comes to terms with your decision. I have read that a disproportionate number of jumpers are failed actors, musicians, etc. attempting to claim some of the recognition they couldn't get any other way. This is too direct. Humans tend to want direct, easy answers to what are invariably complex processes. But these interpretations don't usually hold water, even in less complicated arenas. And sometimes people just jump.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">I am on a train. I am fighting the urge to throw up. I am also fighting the urge to get off of the train before my stop. I need a cigarette. The attendant tells me to get my feet off of the seat. I can't find anything about the suicide online. I am honestly unsure if it happened. I wonder if I should have not posted it on Facebook. It seemed like it was too much for me to keep to myself. I get off the train and walk home. Cigarette after cigarette. I rush into my room and look again online. Part of this seems silly. Why am I so upset. It is indulgent. People seem to empathize. I can't find anything online or in the news. I feel bad about how I might be perceived if this turns out not to have happened. I feel bad about feeling bad. There wasn't enough blood. I am weak. I go to sleep and dream of more water than I can manage. I wake up and go to my computer. Still there is nothing. I try different methods. Finally, there it is. Everything is out of context. I feel better. I feel bad about feeling better.</span>Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-87756738757364187062010-06-05T21:57:00.000-07:002013-06-16T16:10:58.316-07:00Just Tuesday<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgalU1JRFiMF7t1rxKSRE5TKBhoGuLaNNtOnS0rk3jWn7GXSiCn2bwTri0fGRLnhz1D5BLPzNlUsX7s5IIo-3NT5btstI4EP7vCCJ6eseXRTV7m60KOM5Vud3454b4rEiLyl9VMKObWu6il/s1600/375px-Bar-P1030319.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgalU1JRFiMF7t1rxKSRE5TKBhoGuLaNNtOnS0rk3jWn7GXSiCn2bwTri0fGRLnhz1D5BLPzNlUsX7s5IIo-3NT5btstI4EP7vCCJ6eseXRTV7m60KOM5Vud3454b4rEiLyl9VMKObWu6il/s320/375px-Bar-P1030319.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />
<br />
<i>And when you're looking for your freedom</i><br />
<i> (Nobody seems to care) </i><br />
<i>And you can't find the door</i><br />
<i> (Can't find it anywhere) </i><br />
<i>When there's nothing to believe in </i><br />
<i>Still you're coming back, you're running back </i><br />
<i>You're coming back for more</i><br />
<br />
Your eyes take a moment to adjust to the darkness as you walk through the door and ease into the familiar haze of native mildews and humid colognes. As you move to the bar you loudly crash into an unfortunately placed table and reflexively acknowledge that your body is already betraying you. The bartendress half remembers you from your last visit, also on a Tuesday (over six months ago) and also around three in the afternoon, and takes a friendly stab at what you might want.<br />
<br />
"Midori Sour, right?"<br />
<br />
The ride to the bar was punctuated by self-assured interior conversations featuring you as the hip voice of relaxed ingenuity, but with one unintentionally ferocious question you have been reduced to dust. Nervously wondering what could possibly have given her that impression you stare, with exaggerated incredulity, at the genetically homophobic bar back as he thrusts his wash towel into the ice and violently crosses his arms.<br />
<br />
<i>Where you goin' what you lookin' for</i><br />
<i>You know those boys </i><br />
<i>Don't want to play no more with you </i><br />
<i>It's true</i><br />
<br />
<i> </i>
In your deepest possible voice you tell her a Maker's Mark would be fine and lower yourself onto the bar stool in, what you are hoping is, a fashion that does not in any way betray the epileptic wolverine that is suddenly attempting to escape through your chest. "And how about a Sierra Nevada?" you say, trying to make it sound like an afterthought rather than a necessary component for choking down the bourbon.<br />
<br />
A thin layer of sweat shimmers conspicuously on your forehead as you make small talk about oil filters and mixed martial arts and self consciously stare at the ceiling full of hectically decorated dollar bills; thumbtacked constellations of impossibly good times that radiate an astrology of other people's happiness down upon you. You wonder if you drank too quickly as you order another Sierra.<br />
<br />
<i>I don't care what you say</i><br />
<i>I never did believe you much anyway.</i><br />
<br />
The bourbon starts its predictable trek through your system, reenforcing temporarily unstable psychic structures and loosening stratified language potentials as the bar back leans forward to hungrily give you his facebook info. But it is too soon. You brush him off with another order, this time a shot and a beer, and without shame, a tumbler of Jägermeister. The sun will soon be down and families will be microwaving macaroni and you will not be among them.<br />
<br />
And then she walks in.<br />
<br />
You realize your editing device has been disabled four seconds after you blurt out: "So, what brings a fine young thing like you into a bar like this on a fine day like today?" You're fairly certain that she can read the words "Oh fuck" in bright, rashy letters on your cheeks as she moves into the seat next to you and plops her purse onto the bar. Her skin reminds you, on a deeply emotional level, of some kind of cinnamon frosting. Light gathers around her and-"Oh, uh yes, please. Thank you. And another shot of bourbon, too. Thanks,"- seems to coalesce into wings behind her in an entirely natural fashion. You are absolutely certain that her vagina smells like health.<br />
<br />
<i>Sometimes I get overcharged</i><br />
<i>That's when you see sparks</i><br />
<i>You ask me where the hell</i><br />
<i>I'm going
At a thousand feet per second</i><br />
<br />
So much disinformation is coursing through your brain that you start to mumble with a Filipino accent as you simultaneously try to move toward and away from her, clutching at her shoulder and your wallet, as you pretend to intentionally stumble toward the jukebox. Play it off. There is something clearly wrong with the floor design. The air is too heavy. The machine makes indecipherable digital demands that you can't hope to satisfy. Time bends in upon itself. How about Cake?<br />
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<i>We are widening the corridors</i><br />
<i>And adding more lanes</i><br />
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<i> </i>
"Sarah, really? That is a biblical name." You are not sure that it is. If you were at home you could look it up on line and maintain the illusion. She seems unfazed. She also seems to be sending you messages. Body language messages that you can only interpret as meaningful and positive. What if she is in to you? Or the bible? Think of a joke.<br />
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"My friend has a good pirate joke."<br />
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"Really?"<br />
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"Yeah, he's a good dude."<br />
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You are not sure that she got it. Then you are not sure that you even said it. Then, there it is, she is blurry and you blew the joke.<br />
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The bartendress has changed into a bartender and is bringing you drinks that you may not have ordered. You tell yourself to play it off for the fortieth time that night. It tastes like a Creme de Menthe with an oyster in it. Play it off.<br />
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<i>Left my nigga's house paid (what) </i><br />
<i>Picked up a girl been tryin to fuck since the 12th grade </i><br />
<i>It's ironic, I had the brew she had the chronic </i><br />
<i>The Lakers beat the Supersonics</i><br />
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You are still thinking about sex, just less so. It now seems improbable and there is that thing going on behind your eyes. Then, she flashes into your field of vision and says: "What if it all actually is information, ya know? The universe as a digital computer with reality as a holographic image that embraces reality in a two dimensional sphere that is the best our brains can apprehend?"<br />
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"Yeah, that."<br />
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She seems upset and shrieks, "Listen! The Anthropic Principle, Unconscious Mind, Phenomonology, Historical Contingency,..."<br />
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<i>If only I wasn't travellin down this road by my lonely</i><br />
<i>No one who knew me like you will ever know me</i><br />
<i>I don't think you understand how much you meant to me </i><br />
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<i> </i>
"... Information Theory, Yeah, and Goldilocks, Yeah, and..."<br />
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"Sarah, you don't know..."<br />
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"My name is Sandra!"<br />
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"Oh. Solid."Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-81732686861231465972010-04-25T07:40:00.000-07:002012-01-22T01:13:07.640-08:00Yet Another Day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpLod6PiWRk8OLynX97cDkJGuyDPOsmIYV5dSEcvIaRNu2FgihVMmxsQMfuELvWAIuTPF6GkzFijKp-NGtFgrHEySW9E-0E1gD42ecNPu30QZRGmLuCebXqYUl9O5fUkPPZtqPhhNtQxru/s1600-h/kid+school.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 255px; height: 250px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpLod6PiWRk8OLynX97cDkJGuyDPOsmIYV5dSEcvIaRNu2FgihVMmxsQMfuELvWAIuTPF6GkzFijKp-NGtFgrHEySW9E-0E1gD42ecNPu30QZRGmLuCebXqYUl9O5fUkPPZtqPhhNtQxru/s320/kid+school.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5294951926233024242" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />Anthony is a typical nine year old. He has a deep fascination with Star Wars, bodily functions, and Bakugan. He talks to himself out loud as he plays with his Legos; he blushes and stammers when you mention his crush on Valeria; he can make a sword out of anything; and he is late for the bus.<br /><br />Anthony likes the bus, even when he doesn't get to sit next to Noah, and it's even better when he gets a window seat. The fifteen minute ride is a giddy mix of laughter, name calling, Pokemon card exchange, profanity (both real and imagined), Velcro rips, and coughing; but, as the bus pulls into the parking lot, the mood changes dramatically.<br /><br />Principal X is already outside, with his bullhorn, shouting suggestions to the children on how they might more efficiently move from the bus to their classrooms. Anthony ignores these useful suggestions (walk, don't talk, let's go, right to class) and heads straight for the bathroom. He doesn't have to go, but the boys can usually squeeze in a pretty good water fight before class. The door is locked. It turns out that the custodian is absent again and the bathroom doors will remain closed for a while. Now Anthony has to go.<br /><br />First thing you notice about room 16 is that every square inch of wall is covered. There are number lines, class rules, punctuation cartoons, poems about responsibility and squirrels, target words, the Denelian alphabet, and countless references to state standards; large, incomprehensible, and showing a lack of imagination that would make Soviet Russia blush.<br /><br />Anthony is barely in his seat when Principal X's voice comes over the loud speaker. He is reminding teachers that it is no longer enough that the child is in the classroom when the bell rings but that they must be seated. Any child not seated should be marked tardy and sent to the office. This is a relatively new rule and, when combined with the wrought iron gate that surrounds the perimeter of the school, gives the place a warm, prisony feel.<br /><br />Anthony's school takes the 'Vitamin C' approach to teaching. You see, at some point in our history a group of aging hippies decided that it was a good idea to inundate their bodies with massive doses of vitamin c; the premise being that there couldn't possibly be too much of this particular good thing. Shortly thereafter some actual scientists took a look at this idea and found that the body can, in reality, only absorb so much and then quite reasonably discards what it can't use in the form of waste.<br /><br />The corollary is that every minute of every school day is accounted for, apportioned, and meticulously filled. The white boards of all the teachers have the day mapped out, in that unnervingly precise script that they all seem to possess, according to the chunks of time that are to be devoted to each activity. This is the type of approach that appeals to frustrated, half-bright adults who have long since forgotten what it was like to be a child. The fact that this accumulation of activities, and whatever knowledge they are designed to impart, far exceeds the saturation point of any child is utterly lost on these bureaucratically conditioned go-getters. They are also oblivious to the form of waste that this tact will ultimately produce, while the children seem to have some fairly clear ideas.<br /><br />Miss D spends three minutes going over the difference between right and left, and adjusting the children's hands, before launching into the Pledge of Allegiance. Anthony was going to sneak the word 'poop' in, but Cassie was watching and she always tattles. Miss D is in a foul mood because they just added a mandatory meeting after school and this, combined with her two other scheduled meetings, will put her squarely in the jaws of rush hour traffic. She is very worried about having a job next year.<br /><br />Anthony stares at a large, orange reading book entitled: <span style="font-style:italic;">Delights</span>. He is supposed to read a story about a sad dog that doesn't appreciate a healthy diet. In the end the dog is rehabilitated, with the help of some of some wise gophers, and all is well. Anthony thinks he liked it, but trying to translate it into a "story hill" makes his neck hurt. And why wouldn't it? A story hill is just the latest in a long line of well intentioned gimmicks that seem designed to be as unengaging as humanly possible. They are also noticeably ephemeral. Three years ago classrooms were filled with chatter about "text to self" and "text to text" references and three years from now there will probably be multi-colored orangutans spouting various phonemes to the tune of <span style="font-style:italic;">Who let the Dogs Out?</span> in high-def; and, still, no one will know what the hell is going on.<br /><br />The principal's voice comes over the loud speakers again. He lets everyone know that, although it has been raining a little, they will still have outdoor recess. The children cheer and don't seem to hear as the principal goes on. "So, be careful out there. It is wet and I don't want to see anybody running or jumping or playing on the grass or any of the play structures or with a ball or rope of any kind. Have fun."<br /><br />For the last three days Elijah has brought a dirty plastic Safeway bag filled with Cheetos and red licorice that his step-father, who clearly hadn't read the story about the sad dog and wise gophers, had prepared for him. He and Anthony quickly gorge until they become dizzy and short of breath and take on the appearance of prom-bound oompa loompas. Then the bell rings and they line up.<br /><br />In elementary school, no ritual is as reverently observed as that of the class line. The process of getting children into, and then maintaining, a line has taken on all the earmarks of a cargo cult fetish replete with solemn incantation (Is this a line? This is not a line. Is this a line?) and human sacrifice (OK Brenda, go to the office. You will not destroy my line.) And so the children are marched off to Excel.<br /><br />Excel is one of the many acronym laden programs that teachers are supposed to use in place of actual teaching. They are ubiquitous. They are adored. They are also big business and have mission statements like:<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">C1. Students will access, use and communicate information from a variety of technologies.<br />Division 1 1.1 access and retrieve appropriate information from electronic sources for a specific inquiry<br />1.2 process information from more than one source to retell what has been discovered<br />Division 2 2.2 organize information gathered from the Internet, or an electronic source, by selecting and recording the data in logical files or categories; and by communicating effectively, through appropriate forms, such as speeches, reports and multimedia presentations, applying information technologies that serve particular audiences and purposes</span>.<br /><br />Much money changes hands and the perpetually bewildered feel productive, but, functionally, these programs are to teaching what a suit of armor is to bowling; painful and irrelevant. <br /><br />Mrs. G is the mean teacher and when she hears any noise above a whisper she makes an explosive noise that sounds very much like a chicken swallowing a cat. Anthony is terrified of her and, consequently, of math. She also has a gift for making the merely dull seem overwhelmingly complicated. At the end of Excel, her white board is a confusion of arrows, double arrows, sweeping X and O covered arcs, and incomprehensible symbols that have been semi-erased and smeared across basic addition problems. Anthony breathes easier as he leaves her room.<br /><br />Lunch. For those of you who are old enough, who may remember drive-in movie theaters and the heat-lamped delicacies that awaited you during intermission; you have some idea. For those of you who have had the good fortune to stay at one of our many correctional facilities; you have an exact idea. To spend any more time making fun of the food would be like beating Rush Limbaugh to death with a chainsaw; temporarily fun, but a little too easy and ultimately unnecessary. Suffice it to say that Anthony picked at his half frozen taco pocket for a couple of minutes and then downed a pint of chocolate milk and bolted out for recess.<br /><br />One nice touch is that teachers have taken to posting standardized test results on the wall. The students are divided into five categories: far below basic, below basic, basic, proficient, and advanced. The student numbers are placed into the column that reflects their testing proficiency. There is one chart for math and one for language arts. Orwell would appreciate the 'language arts' touch; Anthony does not. His number is below basic on math and basic on the other. Even though it is just his number, he knows that every body else knows whose number is whose. If asked, he would tell you he feels defeated.<br /><br />Miss D is in a much better mood. Her late meeting was rescheduled and the girl's decided it would be a good day for happy hour at Aqui's. She is now in the process of trying to describe the Civil War but becomes flustered when she can't remember whether the North was in favor of or against slavery. Last week she said that the San Francisco Bay was no deeper than five feet at any point. Anthony looks over at Mr. S, the guy who works with the wheel chair kids, and tries to make something of his cringing, angry body language.<br /><br /> <br />The rest of the school day is a blur of not doing art, or music, or having time to digest what one is supposed to have learned. He vaguely remembers attending an assembly, something on the dangers of dodgeball, that was presented by a colorful group of smiling neuters, but can't remember if it happened on that day or another. After school, there is the indignity of homework club and the forced frivolity of KidPlay, and then the late bell rings, adrenaline courses through his veins, and he is back on the bus.<br /><br />Anthony gets home around 4:00 pm. A thing called a lunchable is on the kitchen counter. It consists of three circular pads of half baked dough that can be covered with ketchup, cheese, and raw pepperoni, to simulate pizza. It also comes with a raisin box sized container of juice, a bag of skittles, and a coupon for Flintstones chewable vitamins. <br /><br />Anthony puts a disc into his Xbox 360, sits down in front of the TV, and earnestly sets about killing everything that comes across his path.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-13106287233654715422010-04-13T23:08:00.000-07:002010-04-14T01:55:50.845-07:00Three Short Poems About Blenders<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1v1PJpCSuhE465tsW9pW8b3aVZCYtGt_aQDEebE0J0AHQ5oSdXa-VvlpH1FuEggM1gTawst1X6vCW5dqvRlreFD2npd-qIsuVCTGLU1sxk4IUx5WiaxSJjgqEcuD9gpRlu_teyUXEg3fl/s1600/thumb_bazzill-purple.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1v1PJpCSuhE465tsW9pW8b3aVZCYtGt_aQDEebE0J0AHQ5oSdXa-VvlpH1FuEggM1gTawst1X6vCW5dqvRlreFD2npd-qIsuVCTGLU1sxk4IUx5WiaxSJjgqEcuD9gpRlu_teyUXEg3fl/s320/thumb_bazzill-purple.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5459883832411929170" /></a><br /><br /><br />The window is shut but you keep talking,<br /> your tongue folded into origami nonsense,<br /> and I will never love you.<br /><br /> could you sense not hearing me walk in,<br /> metal fingers clutching at the insolent ice,<br /> brush your hair back,<br /> strays,<br /> rush your black robe,<br /> meant to take care of that insolent glass,<br /> could you not sense hearing him walk out?<br /> <br />The open box leans waiting in the corner,<br /> purged of its moment and contents,<br /> and I will always leave you.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDRw7_i4jopM9dQ8DaIbThVst37ZiOvlCu9DNGl93_VGEct4D-skJQokf3mVNHEL1tUHfRJnq-fIvGrQjR5fiOKhAL0GzHIUIXZ1-BZEs_FRmYC5gNXU_ms-kFaUHQqws45IQK6ViR4OEP/s1600/leaping-lizard-vermillion.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDRw7_i4jopM9dQ8DaIbThVst37ZiOvlCu9DNGl93_VGEct4D-skJQokf3mVNHEL1tUHfRJnq-fIvGrQjR5fiOKhAL0GzHIUIXZ1-BZEs_FRmYC5gNXU_ms-kFaUHQqws45IQK6ViR4OEP/s320/leaping-lizard-vermillion.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5459892568910265058" /></a><br /><br /><br />i mean to touch her<br />to take from her what is mine,<br />hours of ours in the soft scream, <br />until she knows i am a serious man<br />and gray clouds clutter her eyes and release her consent<br /><br />i mean to place her<br />in her immaculate shrine,<br />piece by piece of her cool gleam,<br />until she glows within that vermilion lamp<br />and red seas stagger her lies and reveal her intent<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQPkSJrt5IogPWp7IEF12GO4h4DSFt9BY3isVQdx8oaD7gcf91UgV5GRSZdjT6fmygPH26ntdLKL1r0wYFdre0zSYHwmSUqxFZY9y70elfq531huqU57_MH-aqrTFMay-itfA23Xp-B16c/s1600/Alcantara-Black_3754.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 310px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQPkSJrt5IogPWp7IEF12GO4h4DSFt9BY3isVQdx8oaD7gcf91UgV5GRSZdjT6fmygPH26ntdLKL1r0wYFdre0zSYHwmSUqxFZY9y70elfq531huqU57_MH-aqrTFMay-itfA23Xp-B16c/s320/Alcantara-Black_3754.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5459894493797983570" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />She looked away when<br />I brought it home.<br />Barely able to balance her checkbook<br />She had something like a fine heart.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Please do not think this is your fault</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">She</span> filled the room,<br />I pulled away then.<br />Barely able to maintain our balance<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">She</span> had nothing like a delicate metre.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />I cannot see to see</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">She</span> stopped herself,<br />abrupt, mid-sentence,<br />and dissolved our selves like sand. <br /><br />She leaked out through<br />My finest mind.<br />Openly braced against her outlook<br />She had fallen into herself.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />I was never meant to be a part of this</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">She</span> created things,<br />I could not see.<br />Openly unable to sustain her valence <br /><span style="font-style:italic;">She</span> held nothing more than her and me.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />Please do not think this is your fault</span><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />She</span> stopped herself,<br />abrupt, mid-sentence,<br />and dissolved our lives like sand.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-35721542111157867042010-04-03T07:12:00.000-07:002013-06-16T16:01:18.147-07:00Love's Executioner<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQhuYmX0ZnuvSp80eplz2m-A6nBPw7Cog3t4qwdj5ndbSJeKLuUpQ_mFnsPMq0AmVjvzLcSRTe463nFk23xFMHdjOwQ-Oz37hV2fSnPkzRWCSA9vAKQipUrE5ptyYvIFwIGWWBXNRcoZ6j/s1600/IMGP1606.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5455975483060306994" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQhuYmX0ZnuvSp80eplz2m-A6nBPw7Cog3t4qwdj5ndbSJeKLuUpQ_mFnsPMq0AmVjvzLcSRTe463nFk23xFMHdjOwQ-Oz37hV2fSnPkzRWCSA9vAKQipUrE5ptyYvIFwIGWWBXNRcoZ6j/s320/IMGP1606.JPG" style="cursor: hand; 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What do you want? <br />
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Whatever it is, it has been collected, collated, and circulated for you through the delicate sensibilities of the nearly ubiquitous Craigslist. A broken microwave oven with a dolphin painted on it? <span style="font-style: italic;">Hot_Pocket69@gmail.com</span> in Atlanta has two. You can get both, plus shipping, for under a hundred dollars. He seems reasonable. Calves hurt? <span style="font-style: italic;">MrBigTime@hotmail.com</span> in Cairo has a paste that his grandmother makes out of parsnips, mustard seed, rendered cat, and mercury. He is willing to trade a 6 oz. jar for a Walkman, but I already sold my Walkman last year for eleven dollars. I needed stamps. Besides, my calves are actually more stiff than painful. And, anyway, I am looking for something else. I want love.<br />
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Craigslist provides an impressive array of options: <span style="font-style: italic;">women seeking men, men seeking women, each seeking their own, platonic, casual,</span> the mysteriously titled <span style="font-style: italic;">misc romance, and missed connections. </span> Since each journey begins with a single step, regardless of whether or not one is being carried by our Lord and Savior (Jesus Christ), I clicked my first ad.<br />
<span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Women Seeking Men</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Ummm - 40 - </span><span style="font-weight: bold;">(hayward / castro valley)</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">Unicorn you are<br />In my hotel, four star,<br />Where sheets of clouds trammel <br />Your heart, so ample,<br /><br />So amply I ride<br />Through your eyes, I sighed,<br />Where Love cannot see<br />Past your heart, I say,<br /><br />I am Me.</span><br />
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You: Sensitive, shy, literate, financially stable, 40 something man with piercing eyes and angular features. People say you look like Charles Brolin. You love the outdoors but can snuggle in front of the TV when necessary. You love the arts but are not pretentious. Macrame? You are open to all that life has to offer from science, like astrology and homeopathic medicine, to spirituality and all that The Great Earth Goddess has placed before us. Do you exist?!<br />
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Me: BBW, 40 something photographer who isn't very photogenic; I know, it's ironic :) I have seven wonderful cats and three children. People say I look like Meg Ryan. I have long black hair and large mahogany eyes and lustrous olive skin. I like to read and write poetry (Dickons, Nabakoff) but I can also find time for giggling and jumping. White wine is my passion. I get frisky after my fifth glass... so WATCH OUT!!! I am also a subject of the prophet Esmerelda.<br />
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Us: I hope! :) <br />
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OK. 0 for 1. Maybe a younger girl is in order.<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">indie? tattoos? - 20 (aptos)</span></span><br />
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heyy. i am looking for a guy. she didn't want to post up on here caause it'd be "stupid". we'll see about that when i show up with you by my side! haha. okaaaay.<br />
lol 420 friendly.......<br />
20yrs old, 5'2, average body, snake bites, nose ring<br />
i like latinos and mixed guys. <br />
idk im super open minded super down for any type of fun<br />
im not a slut nor a skank i think sexual talk is a turn off<br />
comin off too strong just makes me sick <br />
welp yeah i wanna be spoilded and i wanna spoil whom ever i end up with<br />
shit atleast my my fone bill thats all lol <br />
i am a Pisces so if that scares you don't reply. <br />
hmmmmm ps i lik pics tooooo.<br />
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OK. 0 for 2. Maybe two women are in order.<br />
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<span style="font-weight: bold;">Women Seeking Women</span><br />
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[<span style="font-style: italic;">Editor's note: I am a much beloved figure in the lesbian community; similar to Larry David. From the butch to the bois to the studs to the softbutch to the bi to the bi-curious, I am here for them. They know that and accept me as one of their own. Consequently, finding a pleasant lesbian couple with which to connect is not as preposterous as it may, at first, appear. Of course I will have to help get them together first, but this is the type of work I was born to do.</span>]<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Cute queer for flirty dates... - 28 - (San Francisco) </span></span><br />
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Curvy activist, new to the area, looking for like-minded serious long term relationship. No bi curious, no men...<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />femme loves femmes - 40 - (san rafael)</span></span><br />
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I would love to meet a friendly, intelligent women. Someone I could share my life with; my pleasures, my pain, my activism. Honesty, warmth, compassion, spiritual depth. I know you are out there. No bi curious, no men...<br />
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OK. This next one looks promising.<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Sexy Sexy Bifemale Seeking Lipstick Lesbian Girlfriend - 22 - (downtown / civic / van ness) pic</span></span><br />
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Hi This is Butterfly... I'm a pretty bifem activist who is into friends, love, whatever. I have a big heart and am pretty much open to anything. No bi curious, no men...<br />
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Yikes! What a politicized community. OK. 0 for 3, 0 for 4, 0 for 5. Maybe a man is in order.<br />
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<span style="font-weight: bold;">Men Seeking Men</span><br />
<span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />looking for asian with smooth ass and small dick - 33 - (sf)<br /><br />asian home alone looking for top guy will host - 35 - (south san francisco)<br /><br />Wanna get naked together? - (petaluma)<br /><br />Horny Hot Bi Bottom+++ - 28 - (haight ashbury) pic<br /><br />Short (or skinny) guy, big package? - (Sonoma County)<br /><br />Suck pig/cock nurse - 40 - (cole valley / ashbury hts)</span></span><br />
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OK. The above is a more or less random sample of the first part of the first page I came across. There is a definite change in tone here. I am not a Sociologist, but I can observe and report.<br />
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First, there appears to be an animal-related lexicography, present in most ads, that would make even George Orwell go running for his Big Book of Gay Idioms. Bears, pigs, snakes, and mythical beasts of every variety lunge out at you from virtually every post. <br />
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" ... stocky, bearish, daddy, growling, untamed, chubby, husky, etc... big bellies and fur a +."<br />
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"... Soul, pig, animal, romantic, oink, 7.5cut, 5'6. Hosting SF. . Will respond to pics and corn."<br />
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" From the caverns of the Isle of Mann I hear the Dragon's song and Excalibur becomes unsheathed. I am The Lizard King!"<br />
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Second, although there were elements of role playing in the other sections, they take on a more direct, and specific, manner here.<br />
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" I want you to come into my house and pretend that you are a burglar that I walked in on. Then I want you to tie me up, carve a Star of David on my shoulder, and cum in my hair. After that you should take off your mask and reveal that you are my uncle who has just been released from prison. Then you should take my answering machine and leave."<br />
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Third, there is a striking difference between the post-coital expectations of the male and the female ads. <br />
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" The door will be open. Come in, jack off onto my knee, and then go away. No kissing, no eye contact, no talking."<br />
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There really exists no female equivalent. The women seeking men ad that reads: " I want you to come to my house and lick my pussy and then disappear," does not exist; not even on Craigslist Las Vegas.<br />
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In all fairness there were plenty of ads that were intelligent, sometimes poignant, efforts at meeting a person for a loving relationship. Good luck to them. Bring a compass.<br />
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OK. 0 for 6 through 0 for 12. Maybe a casual meeting is in order.<br />
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<span style="font-weight: bold;">Casual Encounters</span><br />
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After a seventy minute hot bleach shower and the removal of my eyes I am ready to move on.<br />
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OK. 0 for 12 1/2. Maybe a less specific approach is in order. <br />
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<span style="font-weight: bold;">Misc Romance</span><br />
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OK. Not nearly as mysterious as I was hoping. Reasonably sane people who are smart enough, or experienced enough, to avoid the other sections. Sure, there was the occasional <span style="font-style: italic;">Dominican Hurdler Seeks TBoy For Unauthorized Salmon Fishing</span> ad, but it was the anomaly. Actually, there is a forty year old lady in Foster City who likes prog rock and who is very pretty. I might hit her up once my eyes heal. <br />
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OK. 1/2 for 12 1/2. Maybe I already met my soul-mate.<br />
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<span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />Missed Connections</span><br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br />Chatted in line at Trader Joes - Tuesday 3/30 - 31 - (oakland rockridge / claremont)</span></span><br />
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You were buying aioli and I was wearing a shirt. You said something to the cashier, but I knew you meant it for me. Call me at sixfive3 ohseven22. I love you.<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">33 Bus Saturday morning around 10:00 - m4m - 25 - (castro / upper market)</span></span><br />
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We both got on at the 18th and Castro stop. You got off on Potrero near McDonalds. We smiled at each other throughout the trip. I have nice teeth. I wanted to come over and say hi but felt awkward since we were on the bus. I have dark hair I guess. <br />
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OK. 1/2 for 13 1/2 and 1/2 for 14 1/2. If she isn't in the first two, then it isn't meant to be. I may have decreased my odds by making one of them a m4m, but I have never been big on math. And so, another soul-mate free Saturday morning ends in shame. Well, not shame exactly; I just like that line. Actually, I stole it from Mystery Science Theater 3000 and paraphrased it for my own use. Any women out there like MST3K? No?Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-86296775243245633872010-03-21T19:07:00.000-07:002012-09-04T15:01:02.285-07:00You Are McMurphy, Chief.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGKgJDw9xvUlUmjyyvwMbpbf7JOQMTf11oCO6AxtWqJn5I4WbPA6-JJPQcd2nJHfITV95EuV2K2S-TO3T21hr8dS8Hdx2kK3RbLM19ZofIb9S1RXS3Yjl6yG8ETcsT_LB8_DroDU1mt7AN/s1600-h/731-2.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451300234464259298" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGKgJDw9xvUlUmjyyvwMbpbf7JOQMTf11oCO6AxtWqJn5I4WbPA6-JJPQcd2nJHfITV95EuV2K2S-TO3T21hr8dS8Hdx2kK3RbLM19ZofIb9S1RXS3Yjl6yG8ETcsT_LB8_DroDU1mt7AN/s320/731-2.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 180px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 320px;" /></a><br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;"><br /> Vintery, mintery, cutery, corn,<br /> Apple seed and apple thorn,<br /> Wire, briar, limber lock<br /> Three geese in a flock<br /> One flew East<br /> One flew West<br /> And one flew over the cuckoo's nest</span><br />
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Any book or movie starts the same way. You are thrust into some portion of a character's life. There is a conflict that is resolved or not resolved in some fashion. In this case, you are an inmate who wants out of jail and who thinks you may have found it. You get yourself categorized as psychologically unstable and, ultimately, committed. You are flawed but you have some good qualities. Your key attribute is that you think that you are outside of something that you cannot possibly be outside of. You will find out soon enough.<br />
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Ken Kesey never saw the film. They didn't maintain a surreal enough sensibility for him. The book, which is seen through the eyes of a mute Indian named Chief Bromden, was practically hallucinatory at times. The movie, which was probably already pushing it by having a primary character who was a gigantic Indian, focuses on McMurphy's perspective. It is your perspective; the conscious perspective. <br />
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This perspective involves some of the flattering aspects that we crave. The anti-authoritarian, iconoclastic, sui generis figure who moves through a thoughtless and rigid environment. He can't, in spite of what would be best for him, keep from indulging his frustration. I can't help but root for him. Calling play by play for the World Series at a blank TV screen as his fellow inmates get more and more worked up. Wisecracking with his clueless superiors. Driving a stolen bus to a soon to be stolen boat prior to what will probably be the only meaningful adventure in the other inmate's adult lives. I can't help but root for him.<br />
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The book is a murkier situation. It is, almost exclusively, seen from the perspective of a genuinely distorted Bromden. He sees the 'Combine' in every calculated gesture that nurse Ratched insinuates into the ward. He also sees many things that do not exist. Drunken college students and reactionary prudes refer to this technique as 'the unreliable narrator.' Even drunker graduate students and post-reactionaries know this as a tautology. It's what you say when you can't think of anything meaningful to say.They can't entirely be blamed; even Nabokov bristled against the wisdom of Freud. But Nabokov, this time, this one time, was wrong.<br />
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The relevance of Freud to our time is largely his insight and, to a very considerable extent, his demonstration that the ordinary person is a shrivelled, desiccated fragment of what a person can be. That is a quote from RD Laing's The Politics of Experience. I read it back when I was pretending to read so that I might impress some girls. They weren't impressed, but the quote stuck with me. Not because of my carefully developed misanthropy, but because it applies in such a precisely accurate fashion to me. And to everybody that I can imagine. But, I digress...<br />
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Randle McMurphy, in short, gets himself committed to an asylum so that he can get out of the monotonies of jail. This happens in the book and the film. After some time it is brought to his attention that his release it at the mercy of his wardens. He tries to acquiesce, but they are on to him. He does his best Cool Hand Luke, but, like Luke, he is broken, and when finally given a chance to escape he sinks back into himself and is lost. He looks around the ward through bleary eyes and forgets.<br />
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In the book, McMurphy is often referred to as the bull goose loony. He is that part of you that struggles against the trivia that comprises so much of human existence. He is also that part that gropes your best friend's wife at that Christmas party even though she was just being amiable. He lacks foresight, but he is the reason that you know that you are going to die. He will never leave the party.<br />
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The Chief is selectively mute, but he hears everything. He is also broken. Like a dream he is elusive and distorted and animates conglomerate mannequins for any and every person; seven at a time. He deforms reflections that slip through your fingers before you can grasp them. And he will kill McMurphy. And here is why...<br />
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McMurphy IS you. You come out of nothing into something for reasons that cannot be described much less assimilated. You put yourself into an inescapable situation whether you intend to or not. Nurse Ratched hovers over you and smiles. She may not even know your name but she still locks the door behind her as she leaves. And every window remains locked as you fumble at the keys. You will never rip the water fountain from its mooring, even if not for lack of effort. The house is spinning a roulette wheel with one hundred trillion zeroes and the red and black will eventually be less than a memory. And then a piece of your brain will disappear, and then nothing.<br />
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But Chief Bromden does not understand nothing. I cannot place this metaphor, it seems all too human. Still, somehow, the Chief will recognize what is going on. He will lead you by the hand to a remote part of the casino that is less well lit and that barely throbs to the canned music. He will place his hands over your nose and mouth. You will not struggle. He will call a waitress over. She will look you in the eyes and smile as she asks you what you want; and she will wait for you.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-63191488163821630392010-03-15T14:53:00.000-07:002010-03-21T17:35:33.889-07:00Language Fails Because Everything Fails<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipQ4IZng06gwgOPXpfti_G4gpu3AC31SCmo2pNdY10ZMOPZYm5K-1LUL5iY9zFwQP7pd4pbLbYEpfOtJzA2XFItA-hEpcLjfT28ANruwhcaryumBuJRvL6rquUvKmDImnSw4E080pM7upQ/s1600-h/Mark-Rothko-No-14-1960-7893.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 295px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipQ4IZng06gwgOPXpfti_G4gpu3AC31SCmo2pNdY10ZMOPZYm5K-1LUL5iY9zFwQP7pd4pbLbYEpfOtJzA2XFItA-hEpcLjfT28ANruwhcaryumBuJRvL6rquUvKmDImnSw4E080pM7upQ/s320/Mark-Rothko-No-14-1960-7893.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5449161593666014050" /></a><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">THE FOURTEEN TYPES OF ANIMALS</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">1. Those that belong to the Emperor.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> Borges knew. At one time the study of language must have seemed as penetrating as physics. What could possibly bring us a deeper understanding of ourselves than the study of the very thing that most completely differentiates us from the other animals? Borges meticulously read everything he could get his hands on. He became a proponent. Words mattered. He wanted to be precise, but precision failed him. Soon enough he exchanged actual encyclopedias for imaginary encyclopedias. They weren't fantastic except for the fact of their irreality. Borges had come to the end of language.<br /><br /> <br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">2. Embalmed ones.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> Set this house on fire. There must be a desperate yelp within some people. Such need to find a solid foothold to cling to. <span style="font-style:italic;">Do not end a sentence with a preposition</span>. But even the most elementary questions become vague if you press them. According to some it is OK to end some, sometimes, that way; of course others think otherwise. So look to genius, that foul rag and bone shop of the heart. But it will tell you: You have to find your way; because there is no way. But then, there you are. The earth collapsing beneath your feet as you scramble for contact. <br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">3. Those that are trained.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> I am scared. No, uncomfortable. Who am I to blow against the wind? I feel this. I reach out and touch nothing. No, I have some things. They tie me to the mast and beat against the song. The rocky shoals are not a threat because there are greater threats. I didn't make me this, but my fingerprints are all over it. When told by his patient that they were dreams and how could he be responsible for his dreams, Freud replied: Who else could? <br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />4. Suckling pigs.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> Success has always been a great liar. How could Van Gogh have felt himself a success? Foul cheeses and unwashed linen. That fucking prostitute. Would it somehow be better if he were in heaven raking in his posthumous accolades as he casually exchanged witty banter with Oscar Wilde and Lenny Bruce? Forever? At what point is the game up? Twenty-seven million years into the glory wouldn't the thought cross his mind that they were masked charlatans simply postponing the inevitable? The deification of success. Infinity dissolves perspective. You may as well be everything. <br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">5. Mermaids.<br /></span></span><br /><br /> There are ten times as many bacteria on your body as there are cells in it. Mitochondria, which power our cells and make us us, are, in a very real way, not even us. Our unconscious mind determines over ninety percent of our cognitive processes. Subatomic particles, of which we are made, behave in a fashion that could generously be described as fucking insane. We weren't before we were born and we aren't after we die. Mermaids singing, each to each. We have an improbably brief window of time to react (for/against) to a stimulus in our brain before it becomes reality. That is our free will. I want to talk to you. I want to tell you something. There is so much that we are not; till human voices wake us, and we drown. <br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">6. Fabulous ones.</span></span><br /><br /> <br /> Some men can only be aroused by a woman in pantyhose. Some, only by a woman in pantyhose who is smoking. Someone has to be slapped. Quinn has to be dipped in Fresca and threatened with excommunication. Denise likes it when she is called ambivalent. Doorknobs? A man who has just varnished an old, but not antique, desk is greeted at the door by a woman who stutters uncontrollably as she fingers herself with a gloved hand. Say the word pussy with a Celtic accent. Scream incisor! Growl and pay my gas bill as you rearrange my porcelain figurines. I want you. I want... something.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">7. Stray dogs.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> Death is cheap. On the TV show <span style="font-style:italic;">The Wire</span> there are many well developed characters who come to a terrible and irrelevant end. Cole dies on the stairmaster. Omar, who has previously escaped many preternaturally inescapable situations, is shot in the back by a distracted twelve year old. It is what that show nails. There is no noble death. Few people die defending a noblewoman from a brutal and senseless attack. And if they do, it is very likely that the incident will be interpreted, and re-interpreted, out of existence. Right now, as you read, there may be cells in your body that are on the verge of not functioning. There may be a woman who feels under appreciated and who is swerving her way to San Thomas Liquors to re-stock her supply of Cat's Meow Box Wine; because she has a coupon and because it reminds her of high-school. But it doesn't matter. Fiery blaze or family filled hospital room; you are there. And then dust, decay, indifference, and nothing. Luis Bunuel used to put a rabid dog in his films to remind the viewers that they were one random incident away from eternity. <br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />8. Those included in the present classification.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> Godel's idea is this. Any effectively generated theory capable of expressing elementary arithmetic cannot be both consistent and complete. That means that even adding numbers is fraught with ambiguity. Adding numbers! 6+3=? This is real. I am not kidding. And so, of course, something as soft as language must be even worse. Wittgenstein, who did as much as anybody to demolish the idea of a privileged position, showed that language (i.e. the most salient feature that separates us from the rest of the animals) is, at best, a fuzzy game-like structure that we utilize to navigate the uncharted waters of existence, <span style="font-style:italic;">because we can't do any better</span>. No word is the thing it stands for. The word 'horse' is not a horse. The word 'word' is not even a word if you think of it contextually. Pointing doesn't help much; certainly not in complex situations. So, ultimately, every human edifice evaporates. And what are we left with? The desire to make the things we feel we can grasp into something meaningful. It is literally the best we can do and it is also very close to nothing.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />9. Those that tremble as if they were mad.</span></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"> Look in the shadows. What do you see? Same old monkeys.</span><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">10. Innumerable ones.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> There is a way to show that there are infinities that are larger than other infinities. A guy named Euler did it. No shit. Another guy, not named Euler, wrote an essay on the homoerotic tension between Huck Finn and Nigger Jim. "All right, then, I'll go to hell!" That's a quote! Aldous Huxley died in a self-induced LSD stupor and Hemingway shot himself. Dante said that the suicides resided in the seventh circle of hell. They would only talk if you tore away one of their branches. And in a hundred billion years there won't be enough evidence left for anybody to figure out how the universe began. Joyce was enamored with human waste. Sometimes I say melk instead of milk. There is such a thing as a plastic pony that you are supposed to comb the hair of. 'Jesus wept' is the shortest sentence in the Bible. I am the library at Alexandria.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />11. Those drawn with a very fine camelhair brush.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> Even with precise language, with the vernacular of law or medicine, there will be gaps, holes, that can only be filled with other words which, themselves, engender the need for further gap filling tactics, some of which provide an opportunity for creative expression, and some of which rely upon more sober demands, but of which all must partake in the single minded effort to help clarify that which we innately feel elicits a strong, microscopically focusing, desire for explication, ever swirling inward, like Mandelbrot's sets, until perspective becomes relative and the desire wanes. <br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">12. Others.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> <span style="font-style:italic;">My first memory is of a dream. I was looking down upon a river that felt uncomfortably small. I bent down to see it better but the sensation was unbearable. As I knelt closer the feeling grew until I had to look away, up into the sky, into an overwhelmingly large star.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">13. Those that have just broken a flower vase.</span></span><br /><br /><br /> keep explain. god. you astrology. i can't. create. talk to you. my mother. would it matter. cold medallion. in through the. touch. i can catch a monkey. would it matter. i feel. tarot me. read. smoke brushes leaves. breathe. the reach for can you. under decipher. they, or they. come rush me. over to the now. locust cry. no, i if. stop. would it matter.<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">14. Those that from a long way off look like flies.</span></span><br /> <br /><br /> It is no secret. A group of people come upon a meadow. It is the place where the boy who wrote all those letters finally pulled away from her. It is a field vegetated primarily by grass and other non-woody plants. It is the first draft that led to the poem about Winter. It is a blur of color, warmth, and security. It is the inability to tell his wife that he lost everything. The crime scene. The parable. The chance to get laid. The place I lost my keys. Why did I tell her that? If you would just lend me eleven thousand dollars. The last chance for the Turkana Woodthrush. More actors to swell a scene or two.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-6452653953348292112010-02-02T15:48:00.000-08:002012-09-04T15:01:32.008-07:00Context, Accountability, and Fear in Elementary School Education<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpr9cnNn1fgw7ea4WJKFTAR1BPtqQAdTG0rF9esPmXshTTekJCQZY00CRQPNwYQ1vCQiDH8LW5UOPQcXL3qSRX6PG7e6JX2mbkDujm3hzkdN-sMuzghgGY8sGnUVCUcFNlmlu4jFWzKO98/s1600-h/student.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5239750334029321154" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpr9cnNn1fgw7ea4WJKFTAR1BPtqQAdTG0rF9esPmXshTTekJCQZY00CRQPNwYQ1vCQiDH8LW5UOPQcXL3qSRX6PG7e6JX2mbkDujm3hzkdN-sMuzghgGY8sGnUVCUcFNlmlu4jFWzKO98/s320/student.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center;" /></a><br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">Will someone <span style="font-weight: bold;">please</span> think of the children?<br /> -Helen Lovejoy</span><br />
<span style="font-style: italic;"><br />What I want is to be able to enter a classroom and hear a teacher starting a sentence and then to enter the classroom next door and hear the other teacher finishing it.<br /> -an actual administrator who works for the C.U.S.D.</span><br />
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It is always the same. The parking lot is a miniature Calcutta filled with still-running cars parked at all angles and surrounded by a cacophonous din of anxiety and confusion. Elephantine parents rage through the hallways dragging their listless vacant-eyed children behind them, occasionally pausing to shoot me a look that practically screams: "Why is a grown man working at an elementary school? I know you are a danger to my children and if I only had the time I would do something about it." And then they are off. The first day of school. It is always the same. <br />
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The teachers, fresh from a summer of mandatory training programs <span style="font-style: italic;">(Comprehending Disruptive Behavior, Whole Language and the Whole Child, The Autistic Spectrum: A Rainbow of Hope,) </span>move slowly, with heads bowed, and rarely make eye contact. The prospect of countless hours of reading Houghton Mifflin aloud to classrooms full of bewildered children weighs heavily upon them. There are, everywhere, empty coffee cups and power bar wrappers.<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">In the corner of room 26, eight year old Julie fans herself with a copy of The Teacher From The Black Lagoon in a futile effort to combat the stifling heat. This is the most pleasure she will derive from a book for the next sixteen years. She will work as an administrative assistant for a mid-level auto parts supply depot and will develop a fondness for box wine. One of her daughters will almost be chosen for a reality show about unpleasant chefs.</span><br />
A smart friend of mine (E.R.) once asked me one of those cocktail party/parlor game questions at a BBQ we happened to be drinking through. It went something like this: What is the biggest lie your parents ever told you? Unthinkingly, I blurted out that the inherent value of education, a ubiquitous bit of propaganda familiar to all, was a myth. It seemed like a provocative enough thing to say and was likely to get us through the remaining bottle of Maker's Mark. It did. Good times.<br />
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But as the weeks passed, and as I actually thought about what I had said, I realized that I should have been more narrow in my criticism. Becoming an educated person is undeniably an inherently noble thing. It is the commonly accepted means of becoming educated, the <span style="font-style: italic;">de facto</span> processes that one encounters in almost any school in the country, that are so overwhelmingly delusional.<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">Ms. Greaves frowns at Martin and asks him why he isn't paying attention. He has no idea, but is a little nervous about going to see his dad at that scary place again and wonders if the Sponge Bob movie is this Thursday or Friday. He will spend a fair amount of time in his own scary places and then something will go wrong with his pancreas or spleen. The final thirty-two hours of his life will be a restful blur.</span><br />
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There has been a move over the last eight years towards greater accountability among teachers. The measure of this accountability is in the form of standardized test scores. Teachers are considered successful if their students achieve high scores. If not, then the state will ultimately take over the school, teachers will be flogged in public, etc. Something had to be done, with the world going to hell and all, and this is what they came up with. It couldn't make more sense. <br />
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Especially to the great mass of quasi-literate reactionaries whose heads are over flowing with Fox News Channel's unbiased reporting on America's omnipresent everyday atrocities; whose hearts have grown cold at the thought of the countless schoolyard shootings perpetrated by the godless sodomites who kidnapped prayer from the classrooms; whose eyes mist over at the thought of the roving gangs of pedophilic thugs who have taken over their neighborhoods; whose loins, those vestigial reminders of their animal nature, have evaporated into the ether and are already forgotten. Really, will someone <span style="font-weight: bold;">please</span> think of the children?<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">Leanna doesn't want to read that book. It is a stupid book and she has a better one in her backpack. But her whole class is reading it and so she kills the next twenty minutes by trying to think of words that almost rhyme with orange. She will go to college for eleven years and found her own not-for-profit food bank. She will wonder if she spends too much time being angry.</span><br />
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It is as though education is being managed by people who are entirely unaware of the last fifty years of human psychology. And perhaps it is. Standardized testing of this sort doesn't work because it can't work. Humans develop at different rates and through different means. The effort to make every classroom into the same classroom robs teachers of the opportunity to apprehend their students as individuals and to teach them accordingly. What was once an engaging, creative act is now no more meaningful than a trip to the DMV. We are told we have to do it and so we do, but God knows we die a little every minute we spend there. And so do God's children.<br />
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Still, principals actively seek to create faculties comprised of docile bodies; of teachers unwilling or unable to challenge the status quo. And, in all honesty, the profession of teaching doesn't exactly attract the most courageous, outspoken, type of person. They just want to keep their jobs and not get yelled at. And they already have the aggressively uninformed parents to deal with. The end result is classroom after classroom filled with uninspired, nervous teachers teaching material that they have no passion for, or belief in, to children who have no interest in hearing what they have to say.<br />
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They have no interest because everything they are taught is decontextualized. A good teacher knows that all you can actually do is instill a love of learning in a child and give him/her strategies for dealing with it. It can't be enough that children are told to learn for their own good. Or that they won't get a slightly less mind numbing job if they don't pay attention in school. And children innately see through any attempts to make what happens at school into a moral proposition. Only their Mongoloidal parents have trouble with that one. And, God bless 'em, those parents just don't have time anymore to think. So they let others do that for them. <br />
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Voila! Here we are. No child left behind. Soccer Moms rest easily. Politicians garner votes. Administrators congratulate themselves on the fact that all those meetings weren't for nothing. Teachers are unburdened of the tiresome task of teaching. Money, once frivolously wasted on unnecessary extravagances (art, music, field trips to places that don't suck) can be finally be used for realpolitik perks, e.g. large iron gates, uniform reading documents that have been standardized in an effort to make them unappealing to all, salaries that attract the best and the brightest to positions of high authority within the Ministry of Education. Beaming with pride, they must truly think this will be the best of all possible worlds. <br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">Why can't Johnny read?<br />Because he doesn't give a fuck.</span>Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-47662012285420072352009-12-12T03:52:00.000-08:002009-12-12T08:12:43.214-08:00Vegas Q.E.D. Pt. 1<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjW_DOpgMwMFzF32a6ORncHH_Cq90OFZtbqJfEg-clm2YZ4UvpPQATTz8tqoIr0FN1HHBmw-uwEC2tKKayY1J1v37zFCBtUFN6jXmtm6I3wftnV4ptKbhbIe0drU929f5RY5m4Sty5VjCjN/s1600-h/Luxor+Lightning.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 216px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjW_DOpgMwMFzF32a6ORncHH_Cq90OFZtbqJfEg-clm2YZ4UvpPQATTz8tqoIr0FN1HHBmw-uwEC2tKKayY1J1v37zFCBtUFN6jXmtm6I3wftnV4ptKbhbIe0drU929f5RY5m4Sty5VjCjN/s320/Luxor+Lightning.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5414381381318037954" /></a><br /><br />I don't get around to Vegas much anymore, so I was understandably excited when the Nigerian Society of Physics e-mailed me with a remarkable proposition. They wanted me to fly out and report on the recent additions to the Luxor Hotel and Casino. According to the e-mail, the Luxor had added a series of subterranean restaurants, gaming areas, etc., that came together under the thematic heading of "Luxor QED: Mysteries of the Physical World." <br /><br />Some of my earlier internet communications with Nigeria had been fraught with confusion and intractably labyrinthine banking procedures, but I was hopeful this time as the document was signed by no less than the Crown Prince himself. This optimism was duly rewarded as three days later Fed-Ex delivered a large black package to my door. It was covered with several hundred Igbo and Yoruba characters and was incredibly heavy.<br /><br />The box contained one round trip ticket; an ostrich's egg; 17 oz. of gold dust; an old Loverboy cassette; a black velvet parchment with QED etched on the front in red; several shells; a solid obsidian skull the size of a catcher's mitt; and a handwritten letter from the physics people, that went:<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Dear most honourable Sir,<br /> It is to our praise that we welcome your sincere acceptance of our humble offering. Ours is a new society, young and forthcoming, and hoping with science to relieve much suffering. That you would accept these tokens of our gracious appreciation as we accept the benevolence of watered roots in red clay. Please return any gold dust not used, or in furtherance of payment, as we shall be expecting and God be with you.<br /><br /> Yours Sincerely with,<br /> Robert Mgbawe III, dds</span><br /><br />The Luxor is an awe inspiring monolithic black pyramid that, upon closer examination, begins to look like a ride at Disneyland; and not one of the good ones. I had been there before and, with the exception of Carrot Top's delightfully whimsical stage show, I was not impressed. Standing in the near infinite line to check in was doing little to improve this opinion when a passing maid noticed the QED parchment, jutting from my coat pocket, and collapsed to the floor, frantically groping a black box that was attached to her apron, and writhing in obvious agony.<br /><br />The casino went black and shafts of light scattered over the crowd until finally coming to rest upon ME. Several men in lab coats sped toward me in a golf cart and, after spraying me in the face with something that smelled like a dentist's office, covered my head with a brown sack. Before I passed out I could hear a cacophony of bells, blips, and metallic flourishes accompanied by distinct shrieks in multiple languages.<br /><br />I awoke sometime later with soft restrains around my wrists and ankles and a terrible burning sensation across my lower abdomen. I wanted to explore this unfortunate condition, but my brain felt submerged in molten marshmallow.<br /><br />“He has the invitation,” an irritated woman said, and with that I realized that there were people all around me. I tried to focus but they seemed to be moving at an inhuman rate of speed; coming into my field of vision in twos and threes only to disappear before I could fully make them out.<br /><br />“Ok, OK. He is awake. Fine.”<br /><br />A woman dressed in a black unitard lifted my shirt and ran a machine over my now throbbing stomach. It blipped and she walked away, content. Several hours and several unusual physical procedures (think black light and a ferret) later I was handed a flute of champagne and guided toward a crimson velvet curtain.<br /><br /><br />“Good luck tonight Mr. Storm,” said an amiable Malaysian man who proceeded to grab me by the hand and pull me onto a slow moving escalator. He produced a large blue cube of sugar that he dropped into my glass and motioned for me to drink. This was not an unusual request, by Vegas standards, and I downed the drink in one greedy gulp. Immediately, my elbows and chin went numb. Rather than going up or down the escalator seemed to follow a long elliptical arc until, with some apprehension on my part, we were back where we started; only upside down. My brain was still too sluggish to deal with the gravitational implications of this, but did take note of the fact that the velvet curtain, which I had earlier walked through, was now pressed flat into a small repeating pattern on the carpet. As I lifted my head I saw that we were immersed in the buzzing neon glow of an immense casino and I could feel the ground beneath me vibrating.<br /><br />“You are writing a piece, yes. My name is Tal. Please don’t speak. I can show you most, more than most, but not everything. Yes. You drink? I help you. You must drink fast.” With that, Tal snapped his fingers and a jumpy waitress appeared with a tray of multicolored drinks of various sizes.<br /><br />Vegas, unlike many other cities, must be brutally penetrated to be appreciated. But Vegas, also unlike many other cities, can fight back. And so you must risk waking up behind a Jiffy-Lube on Fremont St. at four in the morning, bleeding from your anus and missing the index finger from your right hand, in order to fully capture the flavor of the place.<br /><br />The directory showed that the casino was actually a series of gigantic cylindrical chambers that were connected by smaller cylindrical hallways. Walking into the first chamber, I was instantly overwhelmed by the sound of shrieking cats. They were in small cages, everywhere, piled on top of each other and extending upward well beyond the scope of my vision.<br /><br />Many tables were surrounded by bleary Asian men clutching hundred dollar bills and screaming at a board that consisted of numbers and closed circuit TV monitors. Groans and shouts came from all directions as Tal tried to explain the game to me. The drinks were causing my head to permanently tilt to the left and one eyelid was fluttering uncontrollably as he rambled on about poison vials, collapsing waves, and multiphasic cats. He plunged his fist into my pocket and pulled out a wad of twenties which he placed on a small black diamond near the edge of the green felt table. The room fell silent. <br /><br />" Are you sure, sir?" asked the dealer. Tal grabbed my arm and waved it in some kind of gesture that prompted the dealer to continue. He touched the black box at his side and a dark woman in a white robe appeared and led a man, whose head was covered by a black velvet hood, through the room to the dealer. He was carrying a glass box which he placed upon the table. Inside the box was a vial of green liquid, a trip hammer, and a small orange cat.<br /><br />" The odds are..." the dealer stammered, but Tal had lunged at him, clutching his throat in his hand, and said: " This is Vegas. Fuck the odds."<br /><br />The dealer waved his hand over the box and the glass went dark. Tal grinned at me and stroked my neck, saying 'This will be good' repeatedly into my ear. A waitress came over, in an obvious state of panic, and placed a lead apron across my chest. The box began to glow. At first it was silent, but then you could hear a faint rustling which grew, as the glowing box became brighter, until it became obvious that cat inside was in a terrible state of distress. The crowd began to hum. Mandarin, Tagalog, Farsi, Senegalese and languages unspoken since the time of Baal screamed through the air above me. The dealer pounded at his skull with his fists as the box started to glow red. The scene was building me to the point of collapse when all at once the box went clear. A collective inhalation went through the room as it was revealed that the cat was both dead and alive.<br /><br />The crowd went its way. The dealer gave me a knowing look and pushed over a stack of multicolored chips. A drunk stumbled up against me and said "Lucky fucking bastard" before being pounced upon by several large Italians and escorted from the premises. I felt overwhelmed and was about to ask Tal what had happened but his smile let me know that this was unnecessary.<br /><br />"Now we go to bar and rest."Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-84713878288227594612009-12-10T18:13:00.000-08:002009-12-10T18:16:58.118-08:00Transcript: Managing a Devastating Hangover<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4LffxZxsG47M43eW7fZVovdejQd8ur6U-SkH-oYWwEGFMzu92joV_bn5sOl42m_ZDnesLuTO6g1yng-D88cLRk89a7V_7_U54H85H59TciRxI6BlHsxtdRKu_LexHMWs6rB-_vLkcelm8/s1600-h/hangover.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 243px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh4LffxZxsG47M43eW7fZVovdejQd8ur6U-SkH-oYWwEGFMzu92joV_bn5sOl42m_ZDnesLuTO6g1yng-D88cLRk89a7V_7_U54H85H59TciRxI6BlHsxtdRKu_LexHMWs6rB-_vLkcelm8/s320/hangover.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304918028676794530" /></a><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">The following is a transcript of a televised episode of <span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Stu Callow's Ideas and More</span></span> that first aired Jan 7, 1992 on WYBE in Philadelphia. All rights are held in perpetuity and any public dissemination without the implied oral consent of WYBE and its subsidiaries is expressly forbidden.</span><br /><br /><br />Cue music; camera, voiceover...<br /> <br />The following is presented by a generous grant form the John D. and Catherine T. MacArthur Foundation; the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation; the Marvin Hagler Association for Ecumenical Research; and viewers like you.<br /><br /><br /><br />Announcer: Tonight, on Ideas and More, Stu explores the world of the devastating hangover. His guests for this discussion are writer and essayist, Martin Amis; writer and journalist, Hunter S. Thompson; writer and drinker, Charles Bukowski; bass player for Molly Hatchet, Banner Thomas; writer and philosopher, Richard Rorty; and, of course, your host and arbitrator, Stu Callow.<br /><br />Stu: Thank you Tim. Tonight we look into the painful, lonely business of the hangover. Not the "I had that third glass of Merlot at the Christmas party and let Garrett from accounting touch me" kind of hangover, but rather the far more devastating variety attendant to the type of drinking experienced by the members of our panel today. And to our panel we turn. Martin Amis, how much did you have to drink last night?<br /><br />Martin Amis: Oh, I don't really, er... by the way, thank you for having me on your show. I don't really deal with numbers so much as with bank statements. When I checked the ATM this morning I had apparently spent 485 pounds, and that seems about right for a Friday.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Today is Wednesday.<br /><br />Stu: Yes it is, Richard, and you have done a great deal of research in this area. First at the University of Virginia and most recently at Stanford. What have your studies found?<br /><br />Richard Rorty: When one is hungover one must resist the temptation to play with one's eyes. <br /><br />Banner Thomas: Oh, God yes.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Right. Mine was a pragmatic study designed to provide strategies for the advanced drinker. I am so tired of all the abstract, rhetorical nonsense that you get from publications like Modern Drunkard and all those other Derrida infected drinker's journals.<br /><br />Stu: And, aside from the important bit about the eyes, what have you found?<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Well, if you lack the stamina or time to simply get drunk again, you might want to consider soup.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: Not just any kind of soup, though. I mean a lentil soup would be useless to you.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: That's right, Hunter. Too many people make that mistake and with terrible consequences. Spinoza, my research has found, made...<br /><br />Stu: Let me stop you right there. Charles, you are shaking your head. What is it?<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Let's be honest here. Spinoza couldn't handle his drink. He...<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Well, I don't think that is a fair...<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Hey Buddy, I let you talk. I'll tear your fucking...<br /><br />Stu: Gentlemen. Mr. Bukowski!<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Thank you, Stu. In his book, <span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Spinoza: A Life</span></span>, Steven Nadler observed that on several occasions Spinoza was found wandering the streets of Rijnsburg, drenched in urine and vomit, bloodied about the mouth, and unable to find his way home. And, and yes this is documented, and this was usually after two small glasses of Pernod. So...<br /><br />Banner Thomas: In all fairness, Spinoza hasn't exactly been treated properly by the drinking cognoscenti. When we, uh, Molly Hatchet that is, when we were on tour in '78...<br /><br />Stu: Gentlemen, we are getting off track. What our viewers would most like to know is, what do YOU do when you have a monster hangover? Hunter, please.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: A lot of food and a lot of pornography.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Oh, yes.<br /><br />Martin Amis: Good heavens, yes.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Yes.<br /><br />Martin Amis: And you really have to balance the two. Too much food and the pornography is useless, but too much pornography and, all of a sudden, half the day is gone.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: I prefer woman on woman.<br /><br />Stu: Of course you do.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: That way I don't have to expend any energy on imagining myself doing anything.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: You are just there watching.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Right. In reality and in the fantasy. It is very relaxing.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: I can't stress this enough. No more than four bowls of soup and no more than four hours masturbating. <br /><br />Richard Rorty: Anything more would be indulgent.<br /><br />Banner Thomas: I find video games help.<br /><br />Martin Amis: Yeah, my son Louis has me playing a game involving mushrooms, dinosaurs, and Italians. It can really take the edge off.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: The sheer visceral thrill of beating a hooker to death with a baseball bat for $300 is indescribable. Grand Theft Auto is just a damn fine piece of work.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: I think I did that once at one of my readings. It was a fucking mess.<br /><br />Banner Thomas: But you had handlers, right?<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Yeah, but I still had to walk through that shit to get out of the green room.<br /><br />Stu: Gentlemen, we seem, again, to have moved a bit off topic. Now, I know this is a delicate subject, but The New England Journal of Medicine recently published an article on the efficacy of the Bloody Mary in the treatment of the "Writer's Curse." Would any of you care to comment on it?<br /><br />Martin Amis: As you know, much of my recent work has been devoted to an examination of cliche and the consequences...<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: Here we go!<br /><br />Martin Amis: And! And the consequences attendant to it.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: You fucking Jews and your...<br /><br />Martin Amis: I am English.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Same fucking difference. You condescending Limey bastards have never had a proper respect for Vitamin C and it shows in your goddamn deformed spines.<br /><br />Martin Amis: The Bloody Mary is a damned cliche!<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: You cannot be serious!<br /><br />Banner Thompson: Mama got the voodoo little bones/Daddy got a mojo nobody knows/Can't get started till the night/The stars come out and moon is getting bright...<br /><br />Stu: Banner, please.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: It was a double blind study, for God's sake.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: The New England Journal of Medicine doesn't fuck around, Marty. <br /><br />Banner Thomas: It's science, man.<br /><br />Martin Amis: Yes, and I am deeply indebted to that journal for many reasons, but I do believe they made a crucial misstep when they acquiesced to the Green Olive Lobby with their obvious pro-Bloody Mary bias.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: You and all your conspiracy theory bullshit.<br /><br />Martin Amis: You TELL me that Green Olive isn't in the pocket of Big Bloody Mary!<br /><br />Richard Rorty: I like olives.<br /><br />Martin Amis: Cunt.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: I had three Bloody Marys before this interview and I feel like Margaret Fucking Thatcher!<br /><br />Stu: OK, OK, OK. Please. On a lighter subject. What is your favorite drink?<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: Wild Turkey, straight. Accompanied by several large grapefruit and a bottle of ether.<br /><br />Banner Thomas: Ahhh, the full body drug. I like Southern Comfort and Fresca.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: A gigantic mug of Pabst Blue Ribbon, with a raw egg, a shot of Old Grandad, and the tears of a woman I have punched all thrown in.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: Doesn't Fresca have grapefruit in it?<br /><br />Martin Amis: Tanqueray and Tonic.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: I love a good Mojito. That isn't gay.<br /><br />Banner Thomas: I like Southern Comfort and Fresca.<br /><br />Stu: You already went, Banner. And we, once again, appear to have strayed off topic. Of course, we could go on like this forever, but we only have about thirty seconds left. Is there any bit of advice you feel like sharing?<br /><br />Martin Amis: For God's sake, don't try to read anything when you are hungover. Your just hurting yourself and the author.<br /><br />Richard Rorty: Oatmeal is good, too.<br /><br />Hunter Thompson: Lemon juice. Hot sauce. Sourdough bread. Res ipsa loquitur.<br /><br />Banner Thomas: I want to re-emphasize what Richard said. Do not play with your eyes.<br /><br />Stu: Charles, you get the last word.<br /><br />Charles Bukowski: Don't obsess about death, it'll just make you fat.<br /><br />Stu: OK, I would like to thank my guests, and urge you to join me next week when the topic will be: Two thousand years of Christianity; What the fuck!?!<br /><br />Cue music, title sequence... out.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-30622175841837071302009-10-02T06:23:00.000-07:002010-04-14T16:19:31.153-07:00Self Interview<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbT-jOtM9K6pmvpWu7GNWXyZAOQ1hyphenhyphena0rz1tQMbQLjkvoee-X-DvfQ0y91Au7sFfkiz59kKZLZYTKYDIH3chBV4mLtDG31JO26IqpxiEmiuXi3Uw78VG8WybmKkwabtSCemoRbSHmC81Ls/s1600-h/s_strom.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 152px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjbT-jOtM9K6pmvpWu7GNWXyZAOQ1hyphenhyphena0rz1tQMbQLjkvoee-X-DvfQ0y91Au7sFfkiz59kKZLZYTKYDIH3chBV4mLtDG31JO26IqpxiEmiuXi3Uw78VG8WybmKkwabtSCemoRbSHmC81Ls/s200/s_strom.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5413979210730872098" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj31EgOB9j_mgwv7XK8U5L_5BX_21IzflmJBMDolF1QCFfZx-KmVaRYscRA0QC9AS97FRN2aDxaI1KwnaLU44geKIq1kl9RfQvqGIZTKUhdZefyzJbV3OtnH_HKLx0g9zkI05tCnDPeevCm/s1600-h/s_strom.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 152px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj31EgOB9j_mgwv7XK8U5L_5BX_21IzflmJBMDolF1QCFfZx-KmVaRYscRA0QC9AS97FRN2aDxaI1KwnaLU44geKIq1kl9RfQvqGIZTKUhdZefyzJbV3OtnH_HKLx0g9zkI05tCnDPeevCm/s200/s_strom.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5413979135601792514" /></a> <br /> <br /><br />A couple of weeks ago I was approached by the good people at Jet Magazine to do an interview regarding the "Influence of Blogging in Black America." For reasons that are unimportant the offer was ultimately withdrawn, but I decided to continue with the interview (without the needless distraction of another person) for the edification of all involved; and, perhaps, humanity at large.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve (with an affected British accent): Don't you think that the idea of interviewing yourself on your own blog is frankly masturbatory, even by your own promiscuously liberal standards?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Yes, but I haven't written anything in nearly a year and am starting to worry about losing my creative mojo.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Yes, but that implies that you once had a creative mojo. Is that necessarily true?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Are you going to use that accent for this whole thing?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Don't deflect.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I don't know if I can assess myself accurately, but I think I've got some game.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Right, but isn't that the very reason that the internet is full to overflowing with the lunatic ramblings of everyone who has some spare time and $17 a month for a DSL? Because they believe they have some game?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Sure, but I treat it as a lark. It's just a fun way to play with some ideas I have that don't fit anywhere else.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />Steve: But by treating it as a lark aren't you merely trying to protect yourself against potential criticism? </span> </span><br /><br />Steve: Probably. But it is just a blog.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Well, what about your music?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: What about my music?<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />Steve: Haven't you kept your music hidden for similar reasons?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Right now I am in the process of getting my music out through a band that I am in.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Yeah, but what are you? Forty-seven?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I'm Forty-three.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Same thing. What the readers of Jet would like to know...</span></span><br /><br />Steve: This isn't for Jet anymore.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: I know, just go with me. What the readers of Jet would like to know is: What took you so long? And...</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Can I answer?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: AND.... Are you sure you are even going to be able to do what you say without making an abortion out of the whole thing?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I'll answer the second question first. No. As far as your other question, I was hoping that upon my death people would discover the songs on my computer and, Emily Dickinson style, preserve and praise them throughout human history.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: Jesus Fucking Christ!</span></span><br /><br />Steve: You asked.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: I know, but isn't that just a slightly more elaborate way of indulging your cowardice? When you are dead, there won't be a you there to appreciate any praise OR to be hurt by any indifference.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Well, like I said, I'm trying to get it out there now.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Steve: And what is your assessment of your music?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I think it is unique, strong, and maybe a little too idiosyncratic.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Really?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I can't lie to you.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Sure you can. You do it all the time.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I stand by my assessment.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: Fair enough. So, how is your love life?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Calm. Sporadic.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: By love I mean sex.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Calm. Sporadic.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Do I really need to push you on this?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: It's like the old AA saying. One is too much, ten thousand isn't enough.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Cute. But I suspect that you just can't stand the fact that other actual people are just more difficult to manage, and to understand, than the energetic, free-thinking, lesbians that you conjure in your mind.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Well, they aren't true lesbians, but I get your drift. I think there is an innate fear of people within me that seems to be connected with my innate loathing of them.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: And, by extension, your innate loathing of yourself?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Ha, sure, a little. It is more of an ambivalence. I don't know what to make of my unconscious mind or its role in my decision making processes. I mean, if I am not in control of my own actions then what hope do I have with a largely indifferent, if not hostile, universe?<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: You mean like the tooth thing in that book?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Exactly.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: The readers might not know what we are talking about.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: It doesn't matter.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: OK. You are clearly not going to elaborate on this any further. Do you have a philosophy of life?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I'm glad you asked. This is how I see human existence. Picture the...<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Yeah, you've been waiting for this the whole time. I hate it when you do that to me.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: It was your idea.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Go on.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: This is it. Picture the most impossibly cute little girl that you could ever imagine, (beautiful clear eyes, a white dress, a warm carefree laugh) and know that every single day, without exception, she shits.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: And what am I supposed to make of that?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: That that is what we are. It is the best we can hope to be. Creatures capable of such astounding beauty, poignancy, resonance and joy, and that all of it is deformed by our inability to come to terms with the sheer brutal fact of our animal nature; the pustules and dark thoughts, the vulnerability in the hands of capricious circumstance, the directionless void, both internal and external, the...<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: If you start quoting Nietzsche, this interview is over. </span></span><br /><br />Steve: I made my point.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Right. Then why don't you kill yourself?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: It might hurt.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Don't be glib.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Well, in a way I am. I am just taking the long route. I took up smoking, I drink like a Russian nanny, my diet consists primarily of cheesecake and chicken skin, and my financial acumen is hopeless to the point of folly. But there are conflicting impulses. I still play tennis, write songs, and go out every day thinking that I might run into somebody who will let me put my penis in their vagina.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: And you just got paid.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Yes! Of course I'll end up buying several ancient French horns which I will accidentally ding up and then have to sell, at a tremendous markdown, sometime near the end of the month so that I can feed myself.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Also, I can think of at least one person who will think that your take on drinking is a gross rationalization.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: He might be right, but without rationalization I would have been gone long ago.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: Which is another rationalization.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: See? You're getting it.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Just a couple of other questions. What do you think of birds?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I hate them.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: Do you also genuinely hate midgets?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: No, I'm just happier when they are not around.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: What's the deal with your fascination with pubic hair?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I have no idea.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Steve: Any regrets?</span></span><br /><br />Steve: I have eleven regrets.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Steve: Thank you.</span></span><br /><br />Steve: Thank you.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-54609617484370043142009-02-07T07:21:00.000-08:002009-12-12T06:51:37.130-08:00The Chick Magnet Gene and a Less Fortunate Mutation<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8ETe80wbyXxMEBkMjKgw38tzzK46WOmMauHjT9a39wY4X2ULQxj2-RZ-o8UnlDGM6tvZ9VxnvJckdKKTJEkyhlzGE6uQ9H58vvfSfyULv_e_pheE2-lj-ZbO154zfxNIowBg4EkDpSMsc/s1600-h/genome3.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 245px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8ETe80wbyXxMEBkMjKgw38tzzK46WOmMauHjT9a39wY4X2ULQxj2-RZ-o8UnlDGM6tvZ9VxnvJckdKKTJEkyhlzGE6uQ9H58vvfSfyULv_e_pheE2-lj-ZbO154zfxNIowBg4EkDpSMsc/s320/genome3.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5300114256565617778" /></a><br />You know the guy. He enters a room and women of all ages begin to lean, unconsciously, toward him. As he moves through the party constellations of the bolder ones break off from their various galaxies and fall into orbit around him. There is hissing and jostling for space. Phone numbers pour from the girl's mouths and the end result usually requires a hot shower. And it all seems so effortless.<br /><br />Perhaps it is. According to the Indiana Institute's Journal for Genetic Understanding, Dr. Wolfram Parky has isolated a gene, designated cm435, that she feels contributes to a male human's innate seductiveness. She studied several hundred Malaysian chinchillas, some with the gene altered or removed, and came up with some startling results. The chinchillas who had the gene removed became: "Forlorn, self obsessed, obese, lethargic, and displayed unusual aggression. That is until confronted by the unaltered chinchillas, after which they sulked off to a distant corner, nervously rocking back and forth." <br /><br />In the human realm, it is interesting to note that the effectiveness of cm435 is not limited by any sociological or economic strata. Nor is it the exclusive realm of those waifish, antiseptic magazine boys who exude an aura of having, long ago, been neutered and who appear to have been carved out of bars of Ivory soap by a cabal of silken-gloved albino virgins.<br /><br />I know a guy (NC) who has above average looks and a superabundance of charm, but who is unlikely to ever find himself gracing the covers of Tiger Beat or Outdoor Male. Still, he has the gene, and I have yet to enter, with him, any room in America that didn't include several old flames, a multitude of potential fires, and at least a handful of random smoldering embers that flit by merely to breath in his essence. He says things to women at bars that, were I to say them would have them frantically lunging for their cans of mace as they shrieked the word "RAPE!" He's got the gene, alright.<br /><br />No biological endowment is entirely free of its reciprocal flaws, however. In the course of her investigations, Dr. Parky observed a small sampling of individual chinchillas who had a very different attractive force. They preferred to spend most of their time alone, but when placed into a group cage they would invariably elicit the attention of the infirm or disturbed chinchillas. Dr. Parky was able to identify this characteristic as being the result of a mutation in the cm435 gene. She dubbed it cm435a and noted that it afflicts approximately .002% of the population.<br /><br />As it happens, I have this gene; in fucking spades. I can't so much as enter a grocery store without the eyes of the unstable being ineluctably drawn toward me. I often know that they are there from a tingling sensation that starts at the base of my spine and radiates out toward my extremities. I'll be casually thumping a cantaloupe when, several aisles away, I catch sight of a pair of pleading, misunderstood eyes. I know this person MUST speak to me. I grab my basket and circle through the store, backtracking and creating false trails, the way they taught me in Ranger school, and wend my way to the cashier only to find that he is right behind me. His hand placed upon my shoulder he begins to tell me... what? Anything.<br /><br />An actual incident should elucidate this problem. I used to go to a bar on Wednesdays before a lesson I had to give. This bar has an outdoor patio for smokers and is usually filled with people. It is big enough, so I can usually find a seat at a small table, alone, and out of the line of vision of people exiting the bar. Even though it is a sweltering July day, I have on a hooded sweatshirt, hood up, gloves, a pair of dark glasses, an Ipod with the earbuds conspicuously extending from my ears, my phone open in my left hand, a book open in my right, and the body language of a wounded badger. <br /><br />I see her enter the patio and my spine begins to vibrate. She is, maybe, fifty, in a full trench coat, with disheveled hair and an unsteady gait. Moving through the crowd she reaches my table and, standing before me, mouths something that I can't hear through my blasting earbuds. I take them off and say, "Huh?"<br /><br />"Well? What's it going to be? You gonna ask me to sit down?"<br /><br />I am neither sober enough nor drunk enough to interpret her question and so I motion for her to sit. She does so, sitting at an angle that allows her to hover uncomfortably over the table, but she says nothing. Just as I am about to reach for the earbuds she reaches across the table and grabs my hand. She starts talking, very fast, in oddly syncopated rhythms, all 7/8 and 13/2, but I can't take my eyes off the medical bracelet that is on her, now, exposed wrist.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />I'm locked out of my apartment. Can you help me get in?</span><br /><br />What about your landlord?<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />He hates me. They all do, really. But not you.</span><br /><br />I don't know how I can help.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />You can break the window. You can crawl through the window. You can unlock the door. You can let me in. Do you like casserole?<br /></span><br />Huh?<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />I won't have any of it, you know?</span><br /><br />By this time the alcohol was doing its thing and I was beginning to appreciate her tempos. I bought her a drink and confronted her about the bracelet (gout/dizziness/misunderstanding) and sent her on her way. Not a typical encounter, but not atypical either. I've got the gene, alright.<br /><br />And so it goes. Pinballing and careening through life, attracting and repelling in haphazard fashion, based on the whim of some very small chemical elements. What else are they determining? Well, like the man in the book says, they don't really determine much of anything; life is far too complicated for that. Human beings are too messy and nature is too messy and we really seem to be just along for the ride. And if that crazy woman was hot then this would have been a different story. Maybe.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-22701262782027902782009-01-14T19:22:00.000-08:002010-03-19T02:56:41.756-07:00Breakfast With The Knight Of Faith<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhgSCZmXNCOCSbkNtUdVKSBL-tRhQSp4f8KDa-OMuQccHA6H8enZ5oNyx17YW4vr08DiiLDgBYyqkV2Ey__04jB_xPsxU7DkH3tGSvXiMy93BeJf7vQD-1FeAXWOgEZzWqwVZq81qeDACP/s1600-h/scalia.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 242px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhgSCZmXNCOCSbkNtUdVKSBL-tRhQSp4f8KDa-OMuQccHA6H8enZ5oNyx17YW4vr08DiiLDgBYyqkV2Ey__04jB_xPsxU7DkH3tGSvXiMy93BeJf7vQD-1FeAXWOgEZzWqwVZq81qeDACP/s320/scalia.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5291354144595387442" /></a><br /><br /><br />The first thing you notice upon entering Antonin Scalia's lovely Plantation style Virginia mansion is the sheer amount of space devoted to relics from the Spanish Inquisition. Hanging from every wall, drooping from the ceilings, and overflowing from countless antique glass cases are thumbscrews, Spanish boots, pincers, spikes, strappadi, leather trusses, bejeweled stilettos, "Trident" manacles with the optional genital restraints, and vices; vices of every conceivable shape and configuration, stretching off into the distance as far as the eye can see.<br /><br />Imagine my surprise when, two weeks earlier, one of the many threatening e-mails that I regularly send to public officials was not only answered, but contained an invitation to a "wholesome, traditional breakfast," and was signed: <span style="font-style:italic;">Sincerely, Mrs. Antonin Scalia Esq.<br /></span><br />She was adamant about giving her husband the opportunity to explain a quotation of his that has been fodder for agents of the Liberal Agenda for over two decades. In its popular form it usually goes something like this:<br /> <br /><span style="font-style:italic;">"Mere factual innocence is no reason not to carry out a death sentence properly reached." </span><br /><br />"I never said any such thing," said Scalia, who insisted that I call him Nino, and who was already a little groggy from a pre-breakfast palette cleansing that consisted of bourbon and string cheese. "It's the fucking internet. Worse than Sodom or Gomorrah. Goddamn thing is infested with every form of lechery and perversion. And I can tell you, under genuine authority," and here he paused to give me a knowing look,"that most of it is run by Jewish Gaylords and atheist pedophiles." Mrs. Scalia, who stood quietly against a wall during this outburst, leaned forward to wipe flecks of foam from his crimson face.<br /><br />In all fairness to Nino, the quote, as it usually appears, doesn't exist. What he actually said (or wrote) was:<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">"... there is no basis in text, tradition, or even in contemporary practice (if that were enough) for finding in the [506 U.S. 390, 428] Constitution a right to demand judicial consideration of newly discovered evidence of innocence brought forward after conviction."</span><br /><br />Nino is a gregarious, intelligent, funny man, and a gracious host, but if the above quote isn't legalese for the same idea (that actual innocence isn't enough to set someone free) then I'll eat a bug. I said this to him as his ancient Negro butler, Lemuel, wheeled breakfast in on a silver, doily bespattered cart. <br /><br />"You don't understand, Steve-O, the Constitution is not a living document open to the interpretation of every moral reprobate who managed to squeak through law school at Michigan State." <br /><br />The breakfast tray consisted of half inch slices of peppered bacon, hollowed out honeycombs filled with grits, wild trout, and molasses soaked black currants, a bottle of Johnny Walker Gold, a bottle of Johnny Walker Green, several shot glasses, a pitcher of deep red wine, a gravy boat filled with mayonnaise, and what appeared to be a battered, deep-fried hedgehog. Nino leaned over, tore off a portion of the hedgehog's face, and, jamming it into the mayonnaise for emphasis said, "The Founding Fathers got it right the first time. I'm just here to make sure they get their way."<br /><br />Emboldened by wine, anger, and the improbably humid Virginia morning I pointed out the fallacy of thinking that there is any way of dealing with the Constitution that doesn't involve interpretation; that there is any way of accurately applying rigid general laws to specific situations; that the very Raison d'être of jurisprudence in America is to have judges who interpret the facts of specific cases and handle them according to their individual merits; and that wild trout never, under any circumstances, belongs with molasses soaked anything.<br /><br />As Mrs. Scalia wiped the flecks of foam from my crimson face I could see Nino shifting uncomfortably in his chair. The Walker Gold was open and flowing by now and he thought it might be a good idea to get "Sandy" over to help clear things up. Sure. Why not? There were plenty of glasses and security was top notch in case things got out of hand.<br /><br />"Do you want to see my tattoo?"<br /><br />Not the first words I expected to hear from a former Supreme Court Justice; at least not since Earl Warren died. Still, the mood was warm, the bacon was peppered, and Ms. O'Connor looked pretty good for an octogenarian.<br /><br />"Why not, Sandy? I guess you took John Riggins advice and finally decided to lighten up." She beamed at the mention of his name.<br /><br />"Johnny's the best thing that ever happened in my life." She glared at Nino. "He knows how to treat a real woman." Then she turned to me. "He's outside now. He won't come into Nino's house cause he thinks he's a crypto-fascist pig." At this she started shrieking hysterically and poured herself a shot of Johnny Green.<br /><br />Sandy was wearing a red leather half-shirt, low rider jeans, panda fur boots, and she practically oozed judicial authority. I shyly walked over to her and said, "Nino and I have a disagreement about...," and before I could get it out she said, "Dude, why are you living in the past?"<br /><br />Nino shouted: "Dammit Sandy! Did you or did you not say that the issue before the court was not whether a State can execute the innocent. It was, as the Court noted, whether a fairly convicted and therefore legally guilty person was constitutionally entitled to yet another judicial proceeding in which to adjudicate his guilt anew, 10 years after conviction, notwithstanding his failure to demonstrate that constitutional error infected his trial? Well?! Did you or what?!"<br /><br />Her face brightened noticeably and she looked at me and said, "See, little man? That's why I love him. He's Kierkegaard's Knight of Faith, mother fucker! Even when he's drunk he can quote me at length" and she made some kind of grotesque, stretching hand gesture as she over pronounced the word <span style="font-style:italic;">leeeennnnggttthhhh</span> . <br /><br />I was angry and humiliated and had so much more I wanted to say, but Lemuel had started playing the piano and Nino and Sandy were laughing and dancing and the room started spinning and the only thing my mind could hold still was Mrs. Antonin Scalia, back against the wall, not frowning, looking through a distant open window at the sun washing over an empty meadow, and I could see clearly; she knew.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-84653466410606165012008-10-31T15:34:00.000-07:002010-02-14T08:55:28.508-08:00Beijing Report: 08-11-08<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5vlXD_3nYv1zIuLHflk-10WGgpNVXkRZoAXLFUo2UbsHhGVsvw5ZchV3H7cnk1V9yfvD_hccc_e0Bi16LySKe178KbmCFcqyzY312JpEg_LgK-aSy9lgJjKLa7WJ5Yb6kkg5NNJt_yaQl/s1600-h/handball.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 242px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5vlXD_3nYv1zIuLHflk-10WGgpNVXkRZoAXLFUo2UbsHhGVsvw5ZchV3H7cnk1V9yfvD_hccc_e0Bi16LySKe178KbmCFcqyzY312JpEg_LgK-aSy9lgJjKLa7WJ5Yb6kkg5NNJt_yaQl/s320/handball.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263497394801475810" /></a><br />Team handball is the Olympic equivalent of inadvertently brushing up against your great-aunt Mildred's breasts as you lurch across the Thanksgiving Day dinner table for your fifth refill of Safeway brand Merlot. Awkward glances are exchanged and then averted, and everyone feels a little uglier as a result. This has happened to me more times than I care to mention, but may explain the hefty birthday cards I received throughout my young adulthood. Nothing, on the other hand, can explain the existence of a sport like team handball.<br /><br />The Olympic Sports Center Gymnasium is located in the heart of Beijing and it is where I got my first look at this awful and confusing spectacle. I am not one for alcohol fueled jingoism, but even I could see that this was a direct affront to anything that a genuine American might hold dear. The gym was a cacophony of low level meth dealers, Euro-trash go-go boys (the nylon sheen of their sky blue Addidas sweat suits a persistent reminder of the failure of Old Europe), and the bleary-eyed and bewildered families of those doomed to participate in this godforsaken mess.<br /><br />I was fortunate enough to be seated, by formal invitation, next to Jacques Rogge, the current IOC President and an ardent team handball enthusiast. During an earlier interview we had nearly come to blows over what I perceived to be the sport's long term and catastrophically deforming effects upon western civilization, but his deep appreciation of my red Volvo functioned as a touchstone between us, and the residual tension was no match for his fine gifts of opium infused Tsingtao and two, startlingly well read, Thai hookers. <br /><br />"You must know yourself to know this game," he said, caressing my shoulder in that effervescently gay manner that orthopedic surgeons from Belgium tend to have. "It is philosophy in motion."<br /><br />Professional decorum combined with the Tsingtao, which by this time had cost me the use of my legs, to create a situation in which I had no choice but to sit through the Championship match between Slovenia and Portugal. Chan had warned me on several occasions about Rogge's tactics and their dire consequences but, as Hunter used to say: Buy the ticket, take the ride. And so here I was.<br /><br />Team handball is an unfortunate combination of all of the worst aspects of basketball, lacrosse, modern dance, Canadian sketch comedy, and public drunkenness. Fourteen hideously unitarded players pirouette up and down a 20 by 40 meter court, in a jagged flash of tip-toeing and jazz hands, only to break into a gruff post-up style game that resembles nothing more than a prison strip search. Movement away from the ball is practically non-existent until an elfin figure appears, seemingly out of nowhere, and sashays toward the goal, whipping the ball behind his neck, past the startled goal keeper, and into the back of the net. This was followed by another fifty-nine minutes of precisely the same behavior; behavior that even Nathan Lane would deem superfluous. I sank deeply into my seat, massaged my lifeless legs, and pondered the implications of this unlikely sport.<br /><br />Hanflugen, as it was originally called, arose in 1510 in the tiny hamlet of Laxcombe near modern Irkutsk. Initially conceived of as an initiation rite for Quaxtic monks, just prior to their entry into manhood through the Festival of Cats, it was adopted by the explorer Juan de Grijalava and brought to Mexico, where it thrived for many centuries. Today's "modern" team handball is clearly an offshoot of this rich Mexican heritage combined with the fluorescent subterranean homoeroticism of pre-war Europe. From there it was a straight shot to the farmlands of the Eastern Bloc and the impossible glory of the Olympics. <br /><br />When the match was over, Rogge leaned over and angrily insisted that this sport means more to more people than penicillin. Maybe he is right. The next day at the hotel I came across a wildly optimistic report in which the website teamhandballnews.com had this to say:<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Whether you’ve been a Team Handball fan your entire life, or just discovered the sport flipping through channels yesterday, you’re soon going to have to come to grips with the stark reality that the Olympics are over and along with that fact, so is your opportunity to watch the sport on TV in the U.S-- at least in the immediate future.</span><br /><br />I have to say that I am intrigued by the idea of countless people forced to deal with the stark reality of a team handball free fall schedule on Fox or the WB this season; of the many silent dinners endured by families trying to reconnect after the senseless devastation of Ireland's upset win over Lithuania; of the ennui that settles like a fog over the barren landscape of the true fan's immediate future. It is a sad and beautiful world.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-85373555562263253472008-10-30T05:54:00.000-07:002013-05-21T11:38:11.967-07:00Beijing Report: 08-10-08<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEgXWrCvalDVy8xNmDhMt4J2FK_HcVvaZuTB_RQofb78hNdjx6YASKEX3vwQLreT4qRzx0sLjztFZNivmKt1oAwm5YuwikORO0enhvIKCVkyBH61KDyCQB_Lhmy6UTyahPtAJNAui7LWw2/s1600-h/web+dressage.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5243296512213023586" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEgXWrCvalDVy8xNmDhMt4J2FK_HcVvaZuTB_RQofb78hNdjx6YASKEX3vwQLreT4qRzx0sLjztFZNivmKt1oAwm5YuwikORO0enhvIKCVkyBH61KDyCQB_Lhmy6UTyahPtAJNAui7LWw2/s320/web+dressage.JPG" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center;" /></a><br />
<span style="font-style: italic;">It is hot. Hot. God it's hot. She lilts to the left and offers me a red blanket. Waterless beaches fill with angry children. Miniature suns streak across the horizon and pelt the sand into fine sizzling dust. Habanero clouds hang like humid night-orange fruit. Wait. Jesse James said that. I am not allowed. "Why isn't she?" I ask, as another door silently closes. My fingers grow embarrassed into her and around her neck choking the yellow from her eyes. She whispers a math equation. Three plus infinity equals.... No, it is a chemical problem. Heat and stupidity create an unstable, volatile mixture. Yes, yes. The water returns. And... with that... I am...</span><br />
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Awake.<br />
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Or almost. Opium is a hell of a drug. I am awash in a thick sheet of sweat. The room seems to be entirely two-dimensional and my eyes are filled with cotton. Chan suddenly appears before me. He has a severely burned hotel towel wrapped around his waist. Using a barking noise combined with a type of epileptic semaphore he is trying to communicate with me.<br />
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<span style="font-style: italic;">-you were sleeping<br />-I was dreaming<br />-you didn't look too good<br />-it was something about a lizard<br />-we have to get out of here</span><br />
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We grab the tickets for the Equestrian Dressage and head for the Volvo.<br />
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The road to Sha Tin Stadium in Hong Kong is empty except for the free Tibet protestors, uniformed with Richard Gere masks and empty gerbil leashes, who pop up like mile markers along the 1000 mile corridor. Chan and I re-acclimate ourselves narcotically and spend the bulk of the trip in a smooth gurgling warmth. The Volvo, resistant at first, more than lives up to its reputation and we find ourselves at the city limits in record time.<br />
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Equestrian Dressage is commonly regarded as the most civilized event at the Olympics, using terms like "Airs above the ground" and "Baroque", and it hits a strong 8.7 on the Fitzfield-Klein Gay Meter. From the videos I researched it appears to be a sport predicated on the idea of getting your horse to behave well at a tea party. This takes years of training and involves many esoteric techniques. Controversy has surrounded this event ever since the Foundational Uniform Codifying Knights of Equestrian Dressage, the sport's governing body, instituted the practice of 'cosseting', or the sewing shut of a horse's anus in an effort to prevent virulent discharge, in 1989. PETA was involved and the sport's Olympic status was in peril but Ingrid Newkirk was plied with bourbon and coupons for Black Angus and here we are.<br />
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Chan and I made our way to participant's table, where the brightest lights of this proud event were gathered, and sat down. Isabell Werth, of the troubled German squad (steroids, white slavery), mistook Chan for a Japanese dignitary and presented him with a gold plated marmot. The table was laid out with expensive champagnes and inedible cheeses. Debbie McDonald, Dressage's elder stateswoman and a notorious drunk, was doing her best to live up to her legendary reputation, but the rest of the table was in fine spirits.<br />
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In an uncommonly refined move, the participants had decided to forgo the actual events and to determine the winners by means of a brisk and heart felt conversation. Steffen Peters opened with a comment on the beauty of the sylvan landscape, but was shrewdly cut off by Courtney King-Dye's observation that the Chinese were no longer using infant girls as currency. The Austrians mounted an attack but accidentally broke into song and were disqualified.<br />
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It seemed all but settled when, out of nowhere, Canada's Eric Lamaze blurted out something about Nietzche's use of irony in his critique of Kant's idealism. It was a tremendously risky maneuver; a less gifted rider had tried a similar approach in 1996 and subsequently lost three fingers on his left hand. But after twenty minutes of back and forth it was decided. Canada would win its first equestrian gold.<br />
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I am not one for emotional outbursts, but I am not ashamed to admit that I misted over as the strains of Oh Canada reached their resounding conclusion. Chan and I thanked them for the marmot and for their courageous performances and made our way back to the Volvo.<br />
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Tomorrow would be another day, and another event (team handball), but today belonged to those champions who put their lives on the line to make horses behave more like people. And to them I dedicate these immortal lines from The Horses Prayer:<br />
<span style="font-style: italic;"><br />Examine my teeth when I do not eat; I may have an ulcerated tooth, and that, you know, is very painful.</span><br />
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Very painful, indeed.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-64673005753175135992008-10-29T21:43:00.000-07:002013-05-21T11:39:09.929-07:00Beijing Report: 08-09-08<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJLa4IOLvv93SqMnjivgso3b5EXc4zAwG3N0yfo5wnykda7OuSJOKieeRhohj3nxfXoup1xKFgRAsSBDi6qwZUacUfTNJlKFO8OeAgKgIJn3THKK6_XlKYzVy_fjM6XmwV8ff9Ea0uOaMH/s1600-h/badminton_416.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5234632611018665602" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJLa4IOLvv93SqMnjivgso3b5EXc4zAwG3N0yfo5wnykda7OuSJOKieeRhohj3nxfXoup1xKFgRAsSBDi6qwZUacUfTNJlKFO8OeAgKgIJn3THKK6_XlKYzVy_fjM6XmwV8ff9Ea0uOaMH/s320/badminton_416.jpg" style="cursor: hand; cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center;" /></a><br />
The first thing you notice when you enter Beijing is the startling number of large, clean, empty streets. It's as though your grandmother bought several hundred miles of beautiful sofa, and then proceeded to cover it in plastic and glare at you when you had any ideas about sitting down. The second thing you notice is the smog that hangs over these streets like an unfortunate brown-green comforter that she knitted herself, even though her hands are in terrific pain and her grandson never seems to call, and that she's just waiting for you to fail to adore. And so I won't. I have loftier ambitions. I'm here for the 2008 Olympic Games; and fuck her sofa anyway.<br />
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I am staying at the Hotel Kunlun on the Tian' Anmen; a seven hundred room tower of glass, angles, and discipline, that should give me easy access to all of the most important events. After checking in I am assigned a militant dwarf named Chan who will, apparently, guide me through the labyrinth that is modern urban China. Chan has what I can only describe as a French accent when he speaks English, all throat and phlegm and anger, and an insatiable hunger for opium that might prove useful should things go badly. <br />
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He also has a bright red Volvo 240 wagon that we pile into as we head off for the Beijing University of Technology Gymnasium and the cruel world of Olympic Badminton. The gigantic steel gym is awash in indirect light and smells faintly of sweat and mango. Malaysia's best hope for its first ever Olympic gold medal, world No.2 badminton player Lee Chong Wei, is eyeballing me from the moment I enter the gym. Her orange and brown sweat suit is severe and uncompromising. Unwashed children massage her thighs and ply her with Chicklets gum. Her racket rests softly beside her chair. <br />
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The Chinese have long abandoned the practice of public cat burning, but you wouldn't know it from the ugly demeanor of the audience in the gym tonight. Uniformed men with megaphones march trough the aisles shouting the most horrible, I'm assured by Chan, sexual epithets at any passerby who doesn't visibly appreciate the rigors of the game. The lights grow dim and, amidst the angry shouting, two androgynous multi-colored badmintoners are wheeled out onto the pit. An elderly woman of indeterminate race shatters a crystal pumpkin and the game begins.<br />
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What appears to be series of feline shrieks is followed by the tossing of the shuttlecock and an audible groan from the audience. Chinese rock music careens throughout the gym and Chan is noticeably shaken. After seventy-two minutes of flashing lights and epileptic frenzy, the girl/boy in orange is carted from the arena and a national anthem of some kind is blasted through the PA system. Muscular Korean women weep uncontrollably. <br />
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Chan grabs me by the arm and hurries me into his, still idling, Volvo. "There are so many events," he implores me. And from the manic look in his eyes, I see that he is speaking from his heart. Well, I'll be here two weeks. The key, as it almost always is, is adequate pacing. On the way back to the hotel, I compose myself and prepare for tomorrow and the giddy heights of equestrian dressage.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-41672823602465629132008-10-16T15:27:00.000-07:002008-10-17T06:47:41.431-07:00Influence, Plagiarism, and the All-Too-Human<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBtysHhIs7g94xypCtnkdNQnlRY4tv04I3HXfzHz4DzG1ScpuKtggx_-t9pGFXtzT8-rRRLCCpjqOcYk1WPwlNMXQTgk6VmEdUUrXqFDQy2HSJZqNwFVz9dlf_cYCwWLa_9T1BgXWs2lv_/s1600-h/escher.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBtysHhIs7g94xypCtnkdNQnlRY4tv04I3HXfzHz4DzG1ScpuKtggx_-t9pGFXtzT8-rRRLCCpjqOcYk1WPwlNMXQTgk6VmEdUUrXqFDQy2HSJZqNwFVz9dlf_cYCwWLa_9T1BgXWs2lv_/s320/escher.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5257921984470579986" /></a><br /><br /><br />For P.K. & J.K.<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">A great book like the DIVINA COMMEDIA is not the isolated or random caprice of an individual; many men and many generations built toward it.<br /> -Borges</span><br /><br /><br /><br />Borges is talking about Dante. Dante, for God's sake! One of the undisputed heavyweight champions of the Western Canon. And he is basically repeating what artists have known for quite some time: Artistic creation does not take place in a vacuum, free from influence or contingency. Everybody's dirty little fingerprints are all over everybody else's mirror. And if you read, and understand, Harold Bloom, this isn't a chronological one way street; modern authors influence how we apprehend past authors just as profoundly as the past authors influence the modern. This makes it incredibly difficult to determine the primacy and authority of a given piece, to find the methods for locating and defining originality.<br /><br />The factors that go into creating a work of art are invariably as mysterious to the creator as they are the viewer. I've read plenty of books about the writing process by plenty of authors who seem to have one common theme; bewilderment at the vital point of explanation. The smarter ones seem to revel in their influences while the less secure seem more likely to get drunk and stab their wives. And, amazingly, the author's knowledge of these things, or lack thereof, has very little to do with the quality of their actual work; the two are simply unrelated.<br /><br />At the same time we don't let everything pass as original. Kaavya Viswanathan of Harvard wrote a book (I'll omit the details since her name already took me fifteen minutes to type) that was publicly derided as an instance of overt plagiarism. The evidence was strong and the fallout predictable. Many examples from her book were paralleled, in the press, with near duplicate passages from another; Ms. V could not be reached for comment; e-mails went unread; movies deals fell through; the faculty room at Harvard was heavily re-stocked with Johnny Walker Blue.<br /><br />An after school special is surely in the works.<br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />Mother: Kathy, did you write this book?<br />Kathy: I did Mom. I swear.<br />Mother: You know I'll love you even if you didn't.<br />Kathy: Why do lies hurt so much?</span><br /><br />And stoned teenagers everywhere will once again get a big laugh on an otherwise dull Tuesday afternoon.<br /><br />There are many other examples of outright aesthetic theft. Vanilla Ice lifting the signature bass line from David Bowie's <span style="font-style:italic;">Pressure</span> and then attempting to stutter his way through a denial (I never heard of that song), an explanation (I listen to the radio a lot, maybe it just got in my head), a lie (my part doesn't really sound like his, it's more def), and a non sequitur (word to your mother), before finally admitting that he was full of shit and scampering back to the mean streets of suburban Port St. Lucie, Florida.<br /><br />Hell, John Fogerty has actually been sued for plagiarizing himself; no small feat, even in a litigation addled and stupefied America. The case was not laughed out of court as one might hope but went on for years before the artist was finally acquitted. Fogerty had to go through his creative process in great, and humiliating, detail before a legal proceeding that was not comprised of our greatest aestheticians and who consequently could have no way of determining the legitimacy of Fogerty's description. Zappa wept.<br /><br />In all fairness, it may be impossible to tell, in many cases, whether someone is stealing, referencing, adoring, satirizing, or unconsciously adopting the work of another. There is good reason for this. The human brain has evolved into a remarkable pattern interpreter; remarkable, but not perfect. We see patterns everywhere, even where there are none. This can be helpful, as when we notice that the beautiful furry animal by the river has a predilection for human flesh. But it can also contribute to our ongoing and idiotic fascination with things like astrology, numerology, and God.<br /><br />It also gives critics (everyone interacting with a work of art is a critic, consciously or otherwise) impetus to find signs of plagiarism in the works of artists that they are ambivalent about. This can be problematic, especially in situations where the accuser has some institutional leverage over over the accused. That is when common human motives (envy, narrowness, dislike, or the simple desire to save one's ass) can have disastrous results. <br /><br />It is a murky business. Vonnegut openly claimed to have stolen from everybody he read. Likewise Twain. Harold Bloom has made himself into a cottage industry with books like <span style="font-style:italic;">The Anxiety of Influence</span> and <span style="font-style:italic;">A Map of Misreading. </span> And these are Big Minds eating at the grown up table; how can a typical high school teacher, with a head full of platitudes and thwarted ambition, be expected to navigate such treacherous waters? Well, he can't.<br /> <br />Christopher Hitchens points this very tendency out in his essay <span style="font-style:italic;">In Defense of Plagiarism. </span> He gives many obvious examples of literary theft ( G. Harrison/Chiffons; A.L. Webber/Puccini, etc) and even a less well known, but devastating, charge against Eliot and the Wasteland. But his main theme is captured in a quote by de Quincy and Hitchen's response to it.<br /><br /> <span style="font-weight:bold;"> <span style="font-style:italic;"> "It is undeniable, that thousands of feeble writers are constantly at work, who subsist by plagiarism, more or less covert. It is equally undeniable ... that thousands of feeble critics subsist by detecting plagiarisms as imitations, real or supposed."<br /><br /> Just as writers should beware of joining the first category, so readers should not be too eager to enlist in the second. </span> </span><br /><br />Ecclesiastes says that there is nothing new under the sun. Still, part of what is good about human beings is that we pretend that there is. We thrill to an original voice, or at least the potential for one. And if artists politely deferred to their intractable connection with everything that came before, then we would be left with nothing. <br /><br />The remainder of the Borges quote from above seems a good place to end.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">To investigate its precursors is not to subject oneself to the miserable drudgery of legal or detective work; it is to examine the movements, probings, adventures, glimmers, and premonitions of the human spirit.</span>Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-83845895733934034282008-09-11T18:36:00.000-07:002010-02-14T09:22:38.696-08:00Sex, Death, and Faberge Eggs<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuH8duohOw38QGY3aUcWU-njHSYNKwMAzjQIDyGfpOAM1fPmAVH8wch4pdbz92GseD1squgN8f1anZNvw5WWGUlWGyVUB9z5FW_PyJJYUPXsArWkqdOHnTZRH31wWbaqbl-veTbmLx-pEz/s1600-h/4x4+faberge+egg+lily+of+the+valley.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuH8duohOw38QGY3aUcWU-njHSYNKwMAzjQIDyGfpOAM1fPmAVH8wch4pdbz92GseD1squgN8f1anZNvw5WWGUlWGyVUB9z5FW_PyJJYUPXsArWkqdOHnTZRH31wWbaqbl-veTbmLx-pEz/s320/4x4+faberge+egg+lily+of+the+valley.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244978809276333218" /></a><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Not to laugh, not to lament, not to curse, but to understand.<br /> -Spinoza<br /></span></span></span><br /><br /><br />Imagine a genuinely omniscient God who came into existence just long enough to create a top-ten list entitled "Things Human Beings Have Irreparably Botched." There are many, many candidates for top honors, but this God (being omniscient and all) would surely place at the top of this list the twin disasters of sex and death; especially if He turned out to be a She. And She would be right.<br /><br /> No? <br /><br />Have a seat, let me explain.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Thus finishing his grand Survey,<br />Disgusted Strephon stole away<br />Repeating in his amorous Fits,<br />Oh! Celia, Celia, Celia shits! <br /> -Swift</span></span><br /><br />First, and it (shockingly) bears repeating: People Are Animals; not corporeal angels floating in the ether along the circumference of the animal kingdom, but full-fledged participants in the near chaos of sustenance and survival that delineates the existence of any creature in possession of a mouth, stomach, and anus. We are crawling, inside and out, with millions of microscopic organisms that tend to react to us symbiotically until they don't, and then it's nothing but fever, vomiting, sloughing off of skin, liquification of organs, and tooth decay. We are even in trouble at the cellular level. Lewis Thomas points out that the mitochondria that power our cells are in a very real sense not even our own. I could go on. No, really.<br /><br />Suffice it to say that we are firmly planted in the animal kingdom and that we have a terrible time accepting this fact. Why? Because animals die. All of them. You can sing in praise of the rich tapestry of life all you like, but every one of them, from Snowball II to that tiger that ate those kids, is dead; and all the rest are just waiting their turn. And if we are like them, if we ARE them, well, then we will die too.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;"><br />Men are so necessarily mad, that not to be mad would amount to another form of madness. <br /> -Pascal</span></span><br /><br /> So, what are we going to do about it? I know. What if there really was a God. Not the imaginary God from the beginning of this piece, but a real God. One who created us and is with us all the time. One who looks out for us in times of trouble (we will, for now, overlook the fact that He was there when the trouble started and didn't do anything to stop it) and who guides us when we are weak with temptation. You know the guy. And he didn't JUST create us, he created us in HIS image, and so, ipso facto, we can't be mere animals. We must somehow be different. We must be like Him; never to know the cold touch of death.<br /><br />The fact that it was We who created Him is by now irrelevant. Not only that, but it seems to work. There are studies that indicate longer life spans for people who have this type of belief. So it should come as no surprise that people are reluctant to do away with their godly associations; even in the face of overwhelming logic; even though these beliefs are a type of social disease; even though the people, on some level, must know that they can't be true.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">Those Jesus Freaks<br />Well, they're friendly but<br />The shit they believe<br />Has got their minds all shut<br />An' they don't even care<br />When the church takes a cut<br />Ain't it bleak when you got so much nothin'<br /> -Zappa </span></span><br /><br />Well, good, that takes care of that. No more death. But since we are largely unconscious animals it won't be easy. Nothing is free, we must pay; and the currency of this payment will be in the form of sin, which can only be redeemed at the one true bank. So we set about attaching this sin to even the most basic human functions; those most likely to represent our animal nature. <br /><br />From the sin of Eve to the curse of Ham. From the Ten Commandments to the lunatic ravings in Leviticus and Deuteronomy. From Matthew's prohibition against impure thought to Paul's keen advice on marriage. It is all laid out before us as a virtual graph of our inevitable failure; and I am only using a single, two-thousand year old, book. Add the moral advice of such great texts as the Koran, the Talmud, the Book of Mormon, Dianetics, the various gitas and hymns, the Left Behind series, the Analects of Confucius, and Dear Abby, and we should be knee deep in self-loathing for ten thousand generations. Praise be to Allah! Or, at least, one of his friends.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Human beings are not animals, and I do not want to see sex and sexual differences treated as casually and amorally as dogs and other beasts treat them.<br /> -Reagan</span></span><br /><br />The most confusing, weird, wonderful, ambivalence generating, messy, creative and procreative act a human being participates in is sex and it gets tons of extra attention from the sin fetishists. There are rules for every aspect of sex, from the words we can use to describe it to the manner in which we can have it, and almost every one of them is negative. We have marinated in these rules for thousands of years and the effect has been frankly deforming. What should be obvious has been obfuscated beyond recognition.<br /><br />Well, maybe that is overstating it. I mean, there <span style="font-weight:bold;">are</span> six and a half billion of us, covering this fuzzy blue planet like a virulent mold, so somebody somewhere must be doing some fucking; but, boy do they feel bad about it. I think this says a lot about the power of sex. In spite of our best efforts, here we are. I guess that hundreds of millions of years of evolutionary biology can't be swayed by two and a half thousand years of glib, fashionable, facile morality.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">I asked a Burmese why women, after centuries of following their men, now walk ahead. He said there were many unexploded land mines since the war. <br /> -Robert Mueller</span></span><br /><br />Women, of course and as always, get the worst of it. This can happen in the most obvious ways (genital mutilation, arranged marriage, the Lifetime network) but it is the subtle psychological distortion of their bodies, pressuring them from all angles, that interests me here. And that leads me to the Faberge Eggs.<br /><br />They are everywhere. In movies: The earnest, well intentioned father telling his bright, confused daughter, in a gray-lit room on a rainy day, that her body is a precious gift only to be given to the right person at the right time. "Thanks Dad," she says, through tears of relief. In music: The ubiquitous new generation of anatomical Barbies extolling the virtues of abstinence while, ironically I guess, thrusting their crotches towards anything remotely phallic. In the news: Fathers, daughters, mothers and sons, proudly displaying their purity rings to arenas full of grinning idiots in a kind of symbolic ritual of mock incest that the participants are, presumably, completely unaware of. In their role models: Behold the new Nancy Grace, now 98% vagina-free.<br /><br />Well, there is a reason that most boys, by the age of seventeen, have had more orgasms than most women, by the age of forty, will even consider having; and it isn't entirely physiological. It is largely due to the fact that women are trained to see their bodies, especially down there, as delicate, esoteric, semi-precious display items that, once despoiled, can never regain their value and purity. They end up viewing their sexual organs as museum pieces, pristine and vulnerable, suitable for viewing by only an elite audience, under special circumstances, in the right light, and not without the aid of a docent carrying a handful of pamphlets. And like most museum pieces, they end up dustily appreciated rather than enthusiastically enjoyed.<br /><br />If we, as a society, had any sense, we would have government issued vibrators mailed to every girl over the age of twelve. Then she could figure it out. On her own. Well, at least at first. Then, once the cat's out of the bag, so to speak, it'd be each woman for herself. And we would be, ever so slightly, less neurotic. <br /><br />But we are far from doing anything like this. And so, reasonably intelligent fathers foam at the mouth as they tell you what they'd like to do to the long haired little freaks who may be thinking about sticking it to their daughters. Nervous mothers, half remembering what they had to go through, furtively pull at their collars and hope for the best. Sons continue to jack off relentlessly while daughters rue the day that they have to look at themselves in one of those little hand held mirrors. You can almost hear Zappa singing in the background: She's just twenty-four/ And she can't get off/ A sad but typical case.<br /><br />I know. I am intentionally overstating things. This doesn't apply so much today. If I had written this thirty years ago it might have been more relevant. But I was ten at the time and didn't know what a hoo-hoo was, and plus, my writing style back then was wildly affected.<br /><br />Think about it, though. Don't fool yourself. This stuff is still with us, still in us; and deformities rarely just snap back into place. So take it from my friends, the Bonobo chimps: Go. Fuck. Be happy. Life is short and you've already spent half of it fretting.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-243630429679599811.post-14585048463773136992008-08-20T06:26:00.000-07:002011-05-08T13:55:29.314-07:00The Path Most Travelled<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpYnuwvPNCnsV5M64i4RvYHr4HNfFeCvMUImAxbpS8kq74-Gqns-bpaxGLAKXDPlzdzyOgoxYH2pQ95p9kXXbYY74etxRpltoPcfhgUlifM43GGgMRK4UstiIZ7Cj6aKkntC9aFWjDSO_s/s1600/ZZ++Dali%27s+Christ+of+St+John+of+the+Cross+1951.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 178px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpYnuwvPNCnsV5M64i4RvYHr4HNfFeCvMUImAxbpS8kq74-Gqns-bpaxGLAKXDPlzdzyOgoxYH2pQ95p9kXXbYY74etxRpltoPcfhgUlifM43GGgMRK4UstiIZ7Cj6aKkntC9aFWjDSO_s/s320/ZZ++Dali%27s+Christ+of+St+John+of+the+Cross+1951.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5460974336909557714" /></a><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">If I am not master of my life, not sultan of my own being, then no man's logic and no man's ecstatic fits may force me to find less silly my impossibly silly position: that of God's slave; no, not his slave even, but just a match which is aimlessly struck and then blown out by some inquisitive child, the terror of his toys. There are, however, no grounds for anxiety: God does not exist, as neither does our hereafter, that second bogey being as easily disposed of as the first. Indeed, imagine yourself just dead- and suddenly wide awake in Paradise where, wreathed in smiles, your dear dead welcome you.<br /><br />Now tell me, please, what guarantee do you possess that those beloved ghosts are genuine; that it is really your dear dead mother and not some petty demon mystifying you, masked as your mother and impersonating her with consummate art and naturalness? There is the rub, there is the horror; the more so as the acting will go on and on, endlessly; never, never, never, never, never will your soul in that other world be quite sure that the sweet gentle spirits crowding about it are not fiends in disguise, and forever, and forever, and forever shall your soul remain in doubt, expecting every moment some awful change, some diabolical sneer to disfigure the dear face bending over you.</span><br /><br /> -Nabokov, <span style="font-style:italic;">Despair</span><br /><br /><br /><br />The terror of his toys! That was a very long, and difficult, excerpt to type, but fucking hell, if that doesn't genuinely capture my feelings on the subject then nothing does. Still, it is a heady, multi-faceted, problem, so let's give it its do.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Our Brains</span><br /><br />We are born from nothing into something. This is what we know. We find ourselves here, and time gives our lives a narrative continuity, and we embellish a bit, and this is our lives. But we have a tool, our brains, and I believe in this tool. When I see movement in the brush I damn well take into consideration the idea that it might be something intent upon eating me. But the brain is imperfect. So I consider the fact that it, that thing in the bush (if, indeed, there was some thing in the bush,) might not. One of the problems with this approach rests in the fact that we do not have unlimited time. In one scenario we end up being the waste that some thing drops along its path as it ambles towards the watering hole (or whatever the modern equivalent is) and in another we look weak and foolish and betray that character to the rest of our tribe. So many factors come into play. How can we manage them all?<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Our Conscious Minds</span><br /><br />We have these remarkable semantic engines and they have one obvious purpose; they generate meaning. In fact, they cannot help but imbue almost every existential gesture with meaning. My mother's Social Security numbers become the square root of the winning lottery numbers that my horoscope, when interpreted using the numerological techniques of the Jewish cabalists, using the time honored practices of gematria, have cleverly enticed from the fabric of being. Such numbers! Maybe I will buy a refrigerator. We see patterns everywhere, even where they are not. But what I may not be getting across is that this is the best, in some respects the very best, that we have. We obviously have an itch. What will we use if not our conscious thought processes? A deck of cards. The position, or perceived position, of the stars. The intestines of an immaculately disemboweled fowl. Because meaning is everywhere. Isn't it?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Our Unconscious Minds</span><br /> <br />The unconscious mind does not know death. It does not apprehend existence on those terms; it can't. But there it is and it damn well determines a huge amount of us. And why not? We really wouldn't want to be in control of our every heartbeat, much less the manner in which our cells divide, or the tactics used by our mitochondria as they fuel our basic structure. But that is merely the physical component of unconsciousness. What we actually do, what we actually are.... Well, there is not much to suggest that we have a lot to say about that either. I mean, really, right now, as you read this, you must feel some sense of control. You went to Starbucks because you like the feel and taste of coffee; you rented that DVD because the reviews were promising; you bought Advil, instead of Tylenol, because... because the label is blue, not red; and the thread count on those sheets was 250; and that lasagna was organic, or at least thought to be organic; and... and your mom used to use Tide. And you yelled at her because you were right, because she would not, could not, listen. And all of those thoughts about all of those people. And sex... well, fuck that.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Our Brains, Again</span><br /><br />Everything we do, everything we feel, everything we are, is funneled through the physical structure of our brains. There are no detours. Lose an arm and you are still Ted. Lose a brain and you are nothing. Soul? We'll get to that. Regardless, can you actually see the brain as a perfectly functioning unit? The frontal lobes are a little too small and the adrenal glands are a little too big (to quote Hitchens, yet again) and sometimes I think that we are lucky to ever make it from our homes to the grocery store without bloodshed, flames, and tears. And how could it be different? Three pounds of grey porridge housed in an obsolescent casing; is this what we are banking on? Well, what are the alternatives? At the risk of sounding facetious, let me tell you. It is something else, something grander. Something other than human. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">The Oceanic Feeling</span><br /><br />Even Freud admitted to experiencing something like an oceanic feeling in the presence of the wonders of existence. Not much of one, but still. I get it. I have been on beaches that have drawn that out of me. I am listening to Phillip Glass as I type this and his music makes me feel something like that once in a while. Your newborn baby's gurgle. The way the puppy looks at you, just on the verge of understanding. Sublime drunkenness. The way she straightens the sheets after you came in her mouth near the end of that marathon fuck session. The way you feel after having that dream about the impossible waves and the empty houses. I know this feeling. It is my soul. It is our souls. It has to mean something. If it doesn't, then what does? Right, what does?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Hermeneutics </span> <br /><br /> Truth is subjectivity. Kierkegaard, who was a Christian, wrote this. God forbid. Still, he was right. There is nothing that is not free from to the smudging fingerprints of interpretation. Even the idea is impossible. We can narrow our constraints but... is Einstein really the best, or most relevant, or least pernicious, physicist? Jerry Rice the best football player, ever? What does that even mean? How is he better than Anthony Munoz? At catching? Sure. But at blocking? Where does Ulysses stand in relation to the Divine Comedy? Is penicillin better than The Rite of Spring, or is Vermeer's green more important than gunpowder? I know that some things are easier to manage than that, but the process remains the same. We have limited tools with which to apprehend an expansive and unwieldy set of variables and it should be no great surprise that some well-intentioned idiots start grasping for magical sources. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Math</span><br /><br />Probabilities are a funny thing. Intuition, which I value highly, has been shown to be not only inconsistent, but to be so far from accurate that it begs the question why we would rely upon it at all. And yet it is there. I use it. You use it. It feels right. But we are wrong. I'm not talking about the type of thing where that guy at the bar is giving you a creepy vibe. I mean something else. Let me give you an example. Fighter pilots, top gun types, have instructors who work them through the difficulties of their wildly complex jobs. When a recruit makes a terrible mistake his instructor yells at him, hoping that this will help the recruit to perform better. It makes sense. But it doesn't, mathematically. When a recruit does exceptionally poorly he is merely behaving at the lower end of his ability spectrum. It happens to us all. Some days you just don't function well. That is why batters who hit the ball correctly one third of the time go to the Hall of Fame. Or, is it actually more random than that? Probably, but, none the less, the math suggests that after such a poor performance, regardless of the external stimuli, you WILL perform better. Obviously, taking into consideration your overall performance, the yelling appears to make sense. It doesn't. You would have improved regardless. But the instructors, when confronted with this line of thinking, could not accept it. How could the yelling not make a difference? What, then, finally does make a difference?<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">God</span><br /><br />God. The guy who knows everything. The guy who can do anything. You want a sunrise that brings tears to your eyes? He's the guy. You want your daughter to make the cheer-leading squad? He's the guy. You want evidence of meaning in your life? He's the guy. It can't be you, because that would be cruel. It can't be nothing, because that would be a joke. We didn't come from monkeys. We are not sacks of protoplasm. We aren't that vulnerable. Thank God for helping me to understand my addiction. Thank God for curing my lupus. Thank God for helping my sister with her thing. Thank God for helping those poor Haitians. And, thank God for the food on this table...<br /><br />...and the food that is not on another table. And thank God for the mutant cells that are killing my daughter. And thank God for my team losing the Davis Cup. And thank God for Pastor Redburn fondling my penis when I was an altar boy. And thank God for algebra, and giraffes, and incest, and emeralds, and marshmallows, and Rachel Weisz, and the flat tax, and.... Well, really, just thank you God. You've been a great help and I couldn't be happier that we created you.Pirate Prenticehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13898991138910869247noreply@blogger.com0